Well, this is definitely a day to celebrate! I have reached my goal set way back in April.
(Drum roll please!)
I. can. put. on. AND. zip. up. my. size. 10. jeans!!!!
(rousing chorus of hallelujah all around, please)
A couple weeks ago, I could put them on but not zip them up. Today, 8.5 lbs from my goal (and official post op low), I tried them on again and Oh My God. They zipped up! I could actually wear them in public too unless I wanted to breathe. (BIG ASS GRIN)
This is really a big deal for me (can you tell?). Thanks to med changes and grazing (and that fucking treat closet back at the old building), I managed to work my way up the scale again 41 lbs from my low. (I’m not giving out numbers so don’t even ask). I felt icky and sad and defeated. I had the surgery, was quite successful (lost 115 lbs) and for the first time in my life, actually felt good in my body. And then, almost just like that, I was eating like crap and felt out of control. Thankfully, my new teeny tummy kept it to a minimum but I learned to graze my ass off all day at work and I kept watching the scale climb up and up.
I was not happy.
I had started listening to some tapes by Wayne Dyer (yes, he’s my guru) and he spoke about manifesting what you want by putting the intention out there to the universe. Bringing about what you want by focusing on that rather than what you don’t want. As he says “As you think, so shall you act”.
So, testing that theory, I put the intention out there that I wanted to feel better in my body. Whatever that meant. And damn if things didn’t start lining up to put me on that path. First it was Shonna mentioning maybe it was a metabolism issue and I should have that checked out. Then came a doctor visit. Metabolism okay, he suggested I go visit another doctor who specialized in weight reduction. Well, I was none too happy about that idea. But I went (because I am a spiritual warrior (and I was desperate)). Dr. Terlinsky was a sweetie and helped put me on the right path. I lost 10 pounds working with him. At that time I decided to try the Atkins plan since people at work had good experiences with it and I had already been working to cut carbs. H agreed to do it with me and my goal was 15lbs between J4 and Labor Day. Surprisingly, Atkins was pretty easy for me (GASP!) and my body seemed to take to it really well.
I made my goal before Labor Day and since then have lost another 7 pounds. I’m not starving, I’m not feeling deprived and I’ve been successful at it. So, here I sit, 8.5lbs away from my goal (and my low) and THRILLED that things have been so easy for me.
I’ve since tested that theory on other things and damn if they didn’t work out too. It may not always be in the form you want but it happens.
So, this is Celebration Part 1 because I can put them on and zip them up. Part 2 comes when I can breathe in them (hehe) and wear them in public without feeling self conscious. Stay tuned.
Caps news: BLEAH – lost to Dallas 4-2 but it was a good, solid effort on their part. Olie isn’t looking on his game lately. Hmmm. That’s gonna hurt us if that remains the case. H says the Caps are notoriously slow starters so I will cut them all some slack. (heh)
Grier (HWMOTI) played his ass off as always. And I have to say that I am getting to be partial to Emminger. He’s 19 and is out there playing “in the show” with the big boys and holding his own. I’m always happy to see him do well.
Today we are off to Philly to spend the night. Tomorrow is the Mind/Body/Spirit Expo (and WD) and then Justin’s hockey game. Quite the busy weekend.
And now I am off to the gym!