Today is Mother’s Day and unlike last year. I am no longer sad about not having my own child to love. I guess in the past year, I’ve come to see that I have been blessed with many in my life with whom I can share that abundance of love.
I think, though, the one who seems to have gotten the lion’s share of that love is Lauren (The GOL) whom I couldn’t love any more, truly, if she were my own child. Of course, then she might not think I am as cool as I am! heh She allows me to shower her with love, kisses (11 of them!), hair playing and stuff. Always gives me a hug and lets me call her “my fake kid”. Yeah, she rocks the hizz-house with the lurve.(I know that came as NO surprise to anyone who reads this thing, right?)
A shout out goes to MY Godmommy of Love and Coolness, Aunt Connie. She taught me how to be a great Godmother, even if it did involve being embarassed by her wearing feathers in her hair at a department store. (Don’t ask. It’s but a faint memory now. Lots of therapy helped!)
So, this is what I said last year:
If I am to have a child in my life, I am going to have to put it out to the universe and see who it brings to us. If that doesn’t happen, I will accept the higher awareness of said universe and go about my business nurturing anyone who wants/needs it.
And this year, I’ve come to see that the beneficient Universe has brought me many that not only want my love and sweet side, but many who need it as well. This year, I’m not sad. This year, I know that I’ve been granted a wonderful gift – the ability to share my love with those who need it in whatever way I can. And the freedom to do that. I know my gifts and I get to put them to good use every single day.
And for that, I bow to the infinite knowledge of the Universe and say “Thank You”.