Well, I lived through the week of Advanced Intuitive Development even though there was a slight crisis of confidence ’round about Wednesday (more to come on that). It’s been a very peaceful week, so much unlike the Intensive back at the end of February. We hardly had time to breathe that week (hence the name Intensive) but this was so calm and just what I needed to restore.
Today we gathered for our last morning of class and then after lunch we had platform readings. For those that aren’t familiar with that term, a platform reading is where the reader (intuitive) stands before an audience, feels intuitively drawn to someone in the group and delivers a message from the world of Spirit. I’d say it’s primarily a message that brings clarity to some issue, event or question rather than a message from a loved one in spirit. But, it can be that as well but more often, in this kind of venue, it’s the former.
I have been out of the closet doing this kind of thing on a much smaller scale for a year or so now and I know I can do it easily and pretty well. But right before we went to sit on the platform (what is really sort of an altar here in the Sanctuary), I had a panic attack. What if my guides/teachers decided to sit this one out?? Oh Lordy! (HA!) Anyway, they assured me they were around by saying “Would you please calm down? It will all be okay.” I took a deep breath and trusted. And, of course, it was just fine. (It did help to hear the Dean snarking a bit behind me. I’d repeat it but you just had to be there to understand how funny it was. I told her that’s the danger of sitting near a blogger – whatever you say is bound to wind up on the written page. She’s a pistol, she is.)
Each woman in the class had such wonderful gifts and ways of presenting them and I loved watching my classmates share those gifts with others. When it was my turn, I remember getting up and going to certain individuals and giving readings but truly, the words were coming from a non-thinking place in my head. (Yeah, yeah – I know. Smartasses out there are saying “Don’t they all?” and to you I say ha ha ha) When I stood in front of a woman here battling breast cancer, I could feel her heart energy so strongly and I was enveloped in love. In fact, it was so strong that my body could not hold it all and it spilled out my eyes in the form of tears. (In fact, just re-typing it brings me to tears) It was that powerful. I really don’t recall much of what I told her but it must have hit home because she told me later that it validated all she has felt over the course of her treatment. Just a lovely authentic moment. And the hug I got from her afterwards was, I suspect, more needed by me than by her.
This whole week confirmed for me all that I knew inside. I can do this work and it brings me immense joy when I just let it flow.