Oh, hello. I’m on day 4 of my impromptu vacation (avoiding bridge traffic on Friday, I took the day off) and have moved most decidedly into “whine” territory. See what having time off does to me? Do I take care of myriad outstanding projects? No. Do I clean? (a wee bit but mostly no) Do I go out and do fun things? Hell to the no.
So, what have *I* done on this little break? Eat an awful lot of crap (ice cream, donuts, bagels and caramel creams), play an inordinate amount of some dumbass game I have on my computer while listening to Randi Rhodes and Stephanie Miller podcasts, visit with my woo-woo buddy Marianne (the only fun and productive thing I did all weekend) and watch some crap on tv. (that new Margaret Cho show? HORRID. She is NOT Kathy Griffin, alas. I like her but this is bad bad bad.)
Friends, I am in a rut. Rut, I tell you. This usually means that my meds are crapping out (apathy is a big indicator of that for me) and the depression that always stalks me is right around the corner. I need some encouragement to climb out of this ditch. My guides and teachers (aka: Round Table) gave me a couple suggestions last night (speaking out loud my daily 5 gratitude list every night was one of them) but I’m hoping you all can chime in with more ideas. Please don’t say ‘learn something new’ because I specialize in that and so far, that has only caused me to feel overwhelmed.
So – help for a ditchful chick? Anyone? Bueller?