Oh, hello. I’m on day 4 of my impromptu vacation (avoiding bridge traffic on Friday, I took the day off) and have moved most decidedly into “whine” territory. See what having time off does to me? Do I take care of myriad outstanding projects? No. Do I clean? (a wee bit but mostly no) Do I go out and do fun things? Hell to the no.
So, what have *I* done on this little break? Eat an awful lot of crap (ice cream, donuts, bagels and caramel creams), play an inordinate amount of some dumbass game I have on my computer while listening to Randi Rhodes and Stephanie Miller podcasts, visit with my woo-woo buddy Marianne (the only fun and productive thing I did all weekend) and watch some crap on tv. (that new Margaret Cho show? HORRID. She is NOT Kathy Griffin, alas. I like her but this is bad bad bad.)
Friends, I am in a rut. Rut, I tell you. This usually means that my meds are crapping out (apathy is a big indicator of that for me) and the depression that always stalks me is right around the corner. I need some encouragement to climb out of this ditch. My guides and teachers (aka: Round Table) gave me a couple suggestions last night (speaking out loud my daily 5 gratitude list every night was one of them) but I’m hoping you all can chime in with more ideas. Please don’t say ‘learn something new’ because I specialize in that and so far, that has only caused me to feel overwhelmed.
So – help for a ditchful chick? Anyone? Bueller?
http://www.e-brighthorizons.com/repeat-after-me/
I do not advise catching up on dosage, though…if you catch my drift.
Get thee to the DR!!! Do NOT, I repeat, DO NOT mess with the MEDS!! I know this. Please Please Please get thy meds checked!!
So I guess telling you to realize your Buddha-nature and stop worrying would be fairly fruitless right now. Hmmmmm.
I don’t think continuing to eat unhealthy foods will make you feel very good. I would try to set yourself up on a physical and metal detox. Go for some walks, eat veggies all day, and don’t think of it as a chore. Exercise, after it is a regular activity, begins to really release a lot of noticeable endorphins into your body and you really kinda get addicted to it. A good diet, not necessarily a low calorie or a less food diet, but healthy foods, will guarantee make you feel like a well oiled machine after a bit. Those are my suggestions, but they are not short term fixes, which I doubt you need, anyway.
:D
I know of this particular post!! Did I dream it? Did I write it?
Oh shit! I’m living it.
Non-motivated. I’m so blue for no reason at all. So blue that I’m afraid I even look dead.
Pogo.com here I come! Colorful, brainless activity.
A nice bubble bath and self pampering tonight may help our spirits for the rest of the week.
Hugs and laughter help too! So hang on girlfriend, we’re on this ride together and if it jumps off the rails and crashes – let’s scream “Weeeeeeeeeee!” at the top of our lungs.
Ready? On the count of three.
One.
Two.
Three.
“Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!”