(From my angels)
See this picture? This means you are sitting in that crossroad again. What do you know when that happens? You know that when you sit and wait, it means you are stuck and getting mired in the stuckness more and more each day.
The remedy? Get up, say “Gotta move. Keep moving. Gotta go.” and then walk. Doesn’t matter in what direction you walk. Doesn’t matter if you turn to look “at the empty space that is you” as long as you keep moving. They always catch up. Even if it takes a while. (And remember that most stuff isn’t even about you, anyway. It just seems like it some days.)
So, get a move on. You’ve got stuff to do.
(PS: we love you)
This meme is called Do you believe in magic?
Wise words from the Queen:
It’s all about those things we can’t explain, things that go bump in the night, and other freaktacular occurrences. In this crazy world of ours, what’s normal anyway??! We’ll even talk about sparks of a pleasurable kind….if you dare. And since I’m in a daring mood, let’s get started. Good luck. And please, try to stay out of the dungeon this week. It’s getting cold down there this time of year.
1. Tell us about your superstitions. Do you have any? Do you “x out” black cats on the windshield of your car, avoid cracks in the sidewalk or practice other rituals that make you feel safer? Don’t have any? Come on now! Make up some….
Hmm, well being the mystical chick that I am, I do have a really good relationship with my pendulum. If it indicates no on something, I don’t do it. Period. End of story. Really. It’s odd because it mostly verifies what I know to be true from an intuitive level. Sometimes, though, it’s hard for me to see through the haze of emotion and random spazziness and that’s when it comes in very handy. For those that are scared of using something like a pendulum, I want to clarify that it’s just a way to access your higher self. The pendulum holds no “power” or magic. It’s just a tool to bypass your rational (in my case, irrational!) thinking mind. Be not afraid, kids.
2. Has anything paranormal ever happened to you that you can write about?
Check out this Halloween post – scroll down to #11 and you’ll see that I have had some interesting experiences. In addition to that, I’ve had visits from my late Aunt Marge on her way off this mortal coil (She caught me in the bathroom. I was minding my own business and I hear, clear as a bell, her voice. “Hi Hon!” she said. It was a quick convo, actually, and she told me that my mom was fine and that she (mom) was very busy on the other side which is why I haven’t heard from her much. It was a funny, chatty kind of conversation.
My grandmother in Spirit would come through just about any medium I visited, usually barreling her way in. She would cause the medium to get a coughing fit or, in one case, he could feel her energy literally pushing on him to tell me she was there.
Yeah, me and the supernatural world get along just fine.
3. Have you ever had a near-death experience? Care to share?
I haven’t. It sounds like it would be a very enlightening experience. The Dean of Sancta Sophia Seminary has had one and came back from it a changed person.
4. Pheromones…aka “love fireworks” (I think I remember those)…are a force to be reckoned with. Do you believe that two people can have an uncontrollable chemical reaction to each other? How do you know this to be true?
Yep, I believe it. Had a boyfriend back in the day who was, for all intents and purposes, a shithead with a side of asshole thrown in for good measure. But when he kissed me, I almost lost consciousness! We had amazing physical chemistry but he was such an awful person that even amazing chemistry couldn’t hold me there.
I think if it’s there, it’s there and you can feel it even across a distance. Trust me on this.
5. Do you believe that modern day witches can put spells on people? If so, who would you like to hoodoo and why?
I’m gonna have to get up on my mystical soap box here and say this: Energy is Energy. It’s INTENT that causes it to be used for positive or negative reasons. There are all kinds of people who put lots of icky thoughts and thought forms out into the universe. Witches and lightworkers, in particular, are well aware of the responsibility of that energy and intent. The Law of Three is explained this way:
The other “Law” of Witchcraft is the “THREE-FOLD LAW OF RETURN”. Basically, this is the natural law of “cause and effect”. The Goddess charges us to exercise great care in all that we, as Witches, do and say and even think. The Threefold Law takes the notion that “what we reap, we will sow”, a few steps further..in fact, THREE steps further. For what we do “for good or for ill, shall be returned to us threefold.” In light of this fact, Witches are loath to cause any harm, lest it be returned to them in spades!!
Even though I am not Wiccan, I think this is a pretty practical law and variations of it can be found in the bible under the “as you reap so shall you sow” chapter and verse. Therefore, I don’t want to send crap energy to anyone because: 1) it’s not a very nice thing to do and 2) it could bounce back on me and I can stir up enough stuff on my own without adding that, thankyouverymuch.
Bottom line (minus the soapbox): no hoodoo for me. :)
6. ESP! What do those letters stand for in your life?
E for Engaged (in life)
S for Snarky (DUH)
P for Pretty Damn Dorky
7. Do you ever hear strange noises in your house? If so, what do they sound like?
The ceiling in the sunroom has some weird creaky action going on when the wind is particularly strong. Just odd. I try to ignore strange noises so I don’t have to get off the couch and investigate.
8. Tell us about a time you “knew” something was going to happened before it did. Are you one of those intuitive types or do you know someone who is ? Do tell.
Listen, my mom had this one in spades! She would get one of her “vibes” and if she said not to step my ass out the door, I did. not. go. She had prophetic dreams and she also just sort of knew stuff. Later in her life, when I came into my own as an intuitive, she had pretty much shut hers down. Her ego self and her cynicism really clouded her visions, unfortunately.
9. I’m a tad gifted in the dream department. Really. Sometimes my dreams are prophetic and come true. It can be a blessing and a curse. Has this ever happened to you? If not, would you like to have this gift? (Be careful what you wish for. It can be freaky at times.)
Hmm, good question. And you're right, be careful what you wish for. I think I will keep the gifts I have and pass on what's behind door number 3, Monty! :)
As you guys know, I see messages from Spirit all over the place and yesterday I got the same message from two different sources. Not sure what I’m to do with the info but trust that I’ll be shown the application, whether it’s in my own life or someone else’s. Here’s what I got:
I happened upon a website (NewAgePride) where I found an article called “A dozen essential concepts for teachers”. It was long-ish so I printed it out and read it at lunch. The one section that resonated most clearly with me was called “Love and Fear”. Here’s a snippet:
The funny thing is, despite lots of different emotions, there are basically only two responses to all that life brings you: love and fear. All the positive feelings of joy, creativity, wonder, comfort, enthusiasm–you name it–all stem from a sense of loving or being loved. When you are in the energy of love, then body, mind and spirit are all in tune; your heart is open, time and stress disappear, all things seem possible, and you like everyone, including yourself.
Any feelings that are not sourced in love actually stem from fear. Despair, envy, greed, hatred, anxiety and anger are all ways that fear expresses itself. We fear pain, we fear death, we fear lack, we fear abandonment, and worst of all, we feel we are somehow “not good enough.†Fear is often overwhelming and all-consuming; when you are in fear, it feels as if there is no other reality—and never will be.
Also, judgment and criticism you feel for other people not only are signs of fear, they even are a message that you fear those things in yourself. Sorry, but it’s true. If you see somebody doing something that’s really bugging you, ask yourself, “Okay, now when do I behave like that?†Often you’ll suddenly see it right away and go, “Oh, noooooooo!†If you spot it, you got it.
(I cringed at the “If you spot it, you got it.” thing because … yeah. Sadly true.)
Anyway, good points and something to mull over (like you do). On my drive home from work, I was listening to a podcast from Cheryl Richardson interviewing James Van Pragh, a well known medium. Damn if he didn’t talk about the same exact thing: love and fear being the source of all emotion. How weird is that? I know, right?
Of course, I pay attention to this message and my mind starts going in 100 directions: is this for me? Is this information for a friend of mine who is having some marriage issues? Who is this for? What is the application?
So far, no answers but I started with my own life and looked at places where fear comes to call. (And there are lots of them.) How do I choose to be open to love when I’m in a place of fear? For me, it’s all about trust. Trusting that what comes will be for my highest good and that I will be fine, no matter what. (That’s really hard to do when you’re in the middle of a meltdown. I’m sure you can relate.) It’s a work in progress for me.
But that message from Spirit was received loud and clear yesterday and I TRUST that further instruction and application will come in time.
From Amazon:
This hard-hitting expose examines both the controversial excesses of the war on terror and the home-front struggle to circumvent legal obstacles to its prosecution. New Yorker correspondent Mayer (Strange Justice) details the battle within the Bush Administration over a new anti-terrorism policy of harsh interrogations, indefinite detentions without due process, extraordinary renditions, secret CIA prisons and warrantless wiretappings.
Fighting with memos and legal briefs, Mayer reports, hard-liners led by Dick Cheney, his aide David Addingtion and then-Justice Department lawyer John Yoo rejected any constraints on the treatment of prisoners or limitations on presidential power in fighting terrorism, while less militant administration lawyers invoked the Constitution and international law to oppose their initiatives.
As a counterpoint to the wrangling over the definition of torture and the Geneva Conventions, the author looks at the use of techniques like waterboarding, stress positions, sleep deprivation and sexual humiliation against prisoners by the American military and CIA; her chilling account compellingly argues that this “enhanced interrogation” regimen constitutes torture. The result is a meticulous behind-the-scenes reconstruction of policymaking that demonstrates how legal abstractions became an ugly reality.
Going from reading the oh-so-digestible “Twilight” saga to Jane Mayer’s “The Dark Side” is giving me frigging whiplash! I’m only 51 pages in and already my little head is spinning. It’s an interesting read about the run up to 9/11 and its aftermath. Alas, no sparkly vampires in this one (well, Cheney but he doesn’t sparkle so much as glow-in-the dark). I’m glad the library gave me a month to read it because it’s so dense that it takes me a while to work through even a few pages. I may have to buy this one because I can only take in so much at a time before I’m overwhelmed with names, facts and icky stuff. However, it’s nice to give my brain a workout once in a while.
Sunday Stealing: The Over the Top Meme
Part One – Describe:
Your hair?
Currently, very much in the manner of SideShow Bob since it’s getting close to the time for a cut. You have to really love me to see me in the morning before I manage to tame it.
Your mother?
At peace, finally free of the body that held her strong mind and spirit back from really living life. She made her transition three years ago this coming week. I carry her wonderfully huge heart and her intuitive sense on through my life and in my work.
Your father?
At peace, as well. Despite his physical limitations (blind at 32 and then double amputee at 43), his spirit and mind soared. I am so lucky to carry his intelligence, spirituality, and liberal viewpoint forward and I do so proudly.
Your favorite food?
Hmm, let’s see. I love devil’s food cake, lasagna, frosted oatmeal cookies (the cheaper the better) and muffins. I’m a hard-core carb-o-holic, am I not?
Your dream last night?
I can only remember bits and pieces of it and I don’t think it was anything of import.
Your favorite drink?
Alcoholic? A Cosmo is awesome for feeling great and then staring at the wall blissfully for 30 minutes or so. Blots my brain right out. Some days, that’s a good thing.
Non-Alcoholic? Coffee, every time.
Your dream/goal?
Work related: Bringing my healing practice fully into fruition
The room are you in?
The front room where the big heater lives. This is where I spend the winter since the sunroom isn’t insulated for the cold and it’s like BRRRR! in there from December onward.
Your hobby?
I truly enjoy farting around. But if I had to pick one, I’d say writing. It can be here, it can be in my journal, it can be stories that I share with one person. I’m a writer. It’s what I do.
Your fear?
I am terrified of hitting a deer as I’m driving on dark roads at night. I have to keep repeating “All animals on this road are safe.” as I drive because it almost paralyzes me. I’m not sure if I’m picking up their fear because there are times when it doesn’t even enter my head and other times when it’s so loud that I can’t hear myself think.
Your TV?
The one upstairs (in my bedroom) is old and I don’t use it much. Maybe an hour a day if that.
Your Pets?
You know them all: Max de dogg (a big doofus), LucieCat (queen of the household) and my sweetie Sophia (independent and intelligent) – they bring joy to my life in all kinds of ways.
Friends?
I don’t have many close ones, actually. And I’m okay with that.
Your life?
Mostly peaceful except when I manufacture drama in my head and it manifests in my life (2007 was year of DRAMA for me and I decided I no longer wanted that).
Your mood?
Currently? Ambivalent. Not sure what the day will bring.
If you’re missing someone?
Always Lauren. You knew I’d say that, right?
Your best friend?
Not even sure who that is anymore. I have a couple with whom I’m close in different ways.
Part Two – The Where’s?
Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Alive. On planet earth. Watching the collective consciousness continue to grow.
Where were you last night?
In the house, watching Twilight again (that is such a bad movie … man. I can’t tell you how bad it is.)
Where did you grow up?
I was born in Baltimore MD but I “grew up” (emotionally) in Richmond VA during my eleven years there.
One place that you go to over and over?
The bathroom. Tee hee.
Your favorite place to eat out?
Five Guys – best burgers and fries around, right Gal?
Wish list items?
You know what? I have all that I need and more. No material items on the wish list.
Last time you laughed?
Yesterday, I think. Not sure why, though.
Last time you cried?
Sometime this past week but not sure why either. I do this often.
Part Three – The What’s?
Something that you aren’t?
Motivated, as you know.
Last thing you did?
Drink my morning coffee.
What are you wearing?
Pajamas. It’s a Sunday morning. Isn’t that the appropriate attire?
Something you’re not wearing?
A bra. Hold those babies back!
Your favorite store?
Any one where I can wander and touch stuff.
Queen Mimi has had a rough couple of months and has written of it so beautifully on her blog. Her dad passed away two weeks ago and how well I know the days after you lose someone, whether it’s to a long term illness, a car accident or some other devastating way, are so very hard to get through. Things seem almost surreal for quite a long time.
I hold to the belief that each soul leaves the physical in their own way and in agreement with their soul’s wishes. When Lauren was ill, I prayed that she would get better, of course. I even tried to bargain with God to take me instead of her. In the end, though, I prayed for whatever was her soul’s desire and if that was to leave us now, so be it. Can I tell you how hard that was? I remember doing the same thing with my dad when I was just 14. I hung out in the hospital waiting room praying for him to be out of pain and if that meant he had to leave, so be it.
Which is not to say that I don’t miss him, Lauren or my mom. It took me many years to come to terms with losing my dad. I still work through bouts of sadness about my mom and I can say without hesitation that there will never come a day when I don’t think about or miss Lauren. I am so thankful that I had this blog to write out all my feelings as I was going through it. It helps me realize how much I’ve processed and gotten through in the past three years.
So, I send a loving thought to Mimi who is a wonderful writer able to really, really connect with others by her words. She will find her peace (and is, in fact, doing that) as she continues to walk her path, learning lessons along the way.
1. How do you find your own personal peace/nirvana?
Uh, should I divulge how much I wish to sit in the closet? I have? Oh hell. I have no secrets from you (three) do I? Well, sitting in the silence (closet or not) is what restores me. I kind of go off the edge if I don’t get my quiet time. Good thing I don’t have kids or responsibilities or anything, right?
2. Where do you go to find respite and solace? Is there a particular place, city, country, room in your house?
Besides the closet, you mean? I like my bedroom. It’s big, it’s all mine and I’m surrounded by books. It’s one of my safe places.
3. Who is the most peace-loving person you know? What makes them so?
I work with a really, really great guy named Fred. He has such loving and peaceful energy and I can’t even really explain it other than he looks content in his own skin. He always has a ready smile and a kind word. I hope I can be like Fred when I grow up.
4. What do you do when your inner peace is threatened?
You’re making me mention the closet again. I retreat inward. That’s after I go cry in the bathroom or something. Fortunately, it’s not often threatened.
Do you have a strategy, a routine, religious faith, a mantra……to calm yourself down?
I talk to my angels, write in my journal and sit in the silence.
5. What is your favorite comfort food?
Oh good lord – what ISN’T a comfort food for me?? (cooked carrots, of course! DUH!) Pudding, rotini pasta, and bread pudding.
6. Do you have a pet that brings you happiness and peace? If not, what type of animals bring you peaceful thoughts?
My kitty cats have always been my sweet little lovey creatures. When I had four of them, they all slept in the bed with me. Yes, folks, I can sleep just fine with four cats on top of me. There’s nothing like the sound of a purring cat.
7. What is your favorite peace song?
I’ll be there by Escape Club – reminds me that my loved ones in Spirit aren’t so far away as it seems on my sad days.
8. Did you post a peace globe on November 5th and participate in BlogBlast For Peace?
I did! And you can read it here.
And on that note, peace out, kids.
This is getting to be a regular feature here on ye olde Snarkypants, innit? Let’s dive right in.
I say a huge WTF to all of the following:
* The entire political process. With the exception of maybe (and that’s a big maybe) ten congresscritters, I want to throw the lot of you out. Posturing fuckwits, all of you, Democrats and Republicans alike. You don’t give one shit about helping people. You care only about lining your own pockets with money from companies whose interests you protect. I couldn’t be more disgusted with all of you if I tried.
~ which leads me to this:
* Hypocrites – I don’t care if you made a sex tape of you strolling your skinny ass down the self serve aisle. I don’t even care if you want to sell it. Knock yourself out, Miss Prejean. But quit acting all pious and Jesus-y about it. You’re not a victim and you’re not being silenced for your views on “opposite marriage”. What you are is a huge fucking hypocrite and I’m pretty sure Jesus would have an issue with that.
~ moving on:
Dude at work who acts like he’s too kool for school: STOP IT. You do everything possible to stand apart from the rest of us. People want to like you but you make it really hard by being all aloof and shit. On top of that, if you fail your Series 63 test again, you’re toast. Hell, even *I* can pass that one without studying. And that’s saying something. Don’t make me root for toast. Unless there’s some jam on it. Then I am all for toast. Pass your test! Be nice to people! Participate! < — my final words to you.
~ and finally:
Person on MeFi who did this:
“I work at a school in New York City. Lately I’ve been under so much stress I have fantasized about quitting often. All of the teachers at my school are browbeaten about test scores and threatened with disciplinary action for missed deadlines and inadequate performance. Yesterday, I told my principal and the assistant principal that I had cancer as a child and it had come back. Yes. Yes I did.”
First off, I have to commend this person for even posting and owning it. On MeFi, yet. While compassion is occasionally found there, more often you’ll get someone laying it on the line to you in no uncertain terms. So, props for bravery. OTOH: That is some fucked up shit. If I didn’t know better, I’d have thought the ghost of Roommate Greg came back and possessed them to make such a stupid decision.
As you can imagine, three readers, they pretty much tore this person a new one. I read about ten replies down before my “OH MY GOD” meter ‘ploded and I had to go listen to a bird sing or something.
Best answer was this:
Uh, wow. Okay. Your lie is going to get found out. Make no mistake about it. Best solution now: tell them that it was a false alarm, drop it, and then go talk to a counselor about how your stress got to the point where you said this. You’re probably very stressed out and it seems pretty clear that something about reality is making you want to live in another reality, one of your own creation. Take some time off and explore this.
Yowza. You know you got some issues when telling your employer that you have cancer seems to be your best option. I hope that person manages to figure his/her way out of that mess.
So, a big WTF to all of you on the list. Try to stay off it for next time, mmmkay?
BONUS: Enjoy! (and I hope this guy never has to sing this at the start of a hockey game because he will be thrashed within an inch of his life – play it and you’ll see why).
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