So, I thought it would be a nifty change to get my nails done up in a very different color than I normally do (red). Why not go totally to the opposite end of the spectrum and just be wild? Â Yeah. Â I’m not the kind to wear wild colors, it seems. Â Or else, I’m too old for this color. (I feel like a dork.)
Oh well, I tried. Â :-)
Happy almost Friday!


This dance scene from the not-half-bad movie “The Ugly Truth†makes me melt. Why? Watch how he dances. It’s very masculine, very strong but smoldering with heat and lust and passion. I rewound the scene about three times to watch it and then made myself a note to grab it for a blog post. Hotness! I want some. Now.
(ahem)
Did you know that the sound of me being all angry and yelling causes my cats to hide? Well, it does. Wasn’t yelling AT anyone, just being mad about a lot of things. Despite having a job, a home, my health and people/pets who love me, I cannot seem to see beyond what I lack. But allowing myself to be mad about it caused me to feel guilty because I have so much that is good in my life. So, mad but feeling guilty for being that way. Today I allowed myself to really and truly feel sad, mad, grumpy, ungrateful and pissy. I yelled and stomped and cried. Then I blew my nose and took a shower, letting the water wash away what was left of my mood. It was quite cathartic. I still feel some of that stuff but it’s not as overwhelming as it has been, trying to hold it all inside. One of the things I advocate is to really and truly feel something until it starts moving out of you. Because it’s a well-known truism that what you resist, persists. And I’m tired of feeling ungrounded, sad, foggy and peevy. I chose not to resist any longer. It didn’t kill me, it didn’t pull me under. In fact, I feel a bit better after crying and showering.
Cookie will be on American Idol on Wednesday. Word has it he’s covering a Rolling Stones song (since that’s the theme this week) so speculation is afoot as to what song it might be. Me? I’d kill to hear him sing “Wild Horsesâ€. I’ve always loved that song. Whatever he covers, I know it will be hella good. And in other sekrit boyfriend news, Hal Sparks will be hosting the Stephanie Miller show all next week while livestreamng it. I loves me some techno-geeks.
What else needs venting? Oh lots more, I am so sure. And you, dear three readers, will be among the very first to know.
And now, random lyrics (yes, they’re DC lyrics, duh):
Silver
When writing your history
I will always be a footnote
A distant memory
A warning sign of mistakes made
The kind that you learn from
This song is the best of me
Taking pills for solemn motive
A better side of me, an open mind
For mistakes made
The kind that you burn from
So take this small confession as my price to pay
I’ve never been the kind to let go
But before you up and walk away
I’m miserable without you, you know
This silver leaves me longing for gold
Second place has never carried me home
Second place has never carried me home


Sunday Stealing: Judd’s Merged Meme
1. What were doing 10 years ago?
I can barely remember yesterday much less ten years ago. I think I had just made the move from Richmond VA to Northern VA and working at a new job.
2. Five snacks that you enjoy in a perfect, non weight-gaining world
Where is this perfect, non-weight gaining world you speak of? I wish to be transported there immediately! Snacks? I love hard, crunchy fat pretzels, fresh potato chips, brownies, devils food cake and snickers bars.
3. Five things you would do if you were a billionaire:
First thing: make sure my relatives were all taken care of – especially my godmommy, my auntie G and auntie J. Then I would try to find a way to assist with job creation for many, many people somehow, send myself to a fat farm, start a broadcast network for progressives to combat the bs from fox and then I’d get a new house.
4. Three of your habits:
I drink coffee in the evening before bed, have conversations with myself often, and sleep with the sound machine set on rain.
5. Five jobs that you’ve have had:
Fast food counter help, receptionist at financial services firm, customer support at a pet med place, operations manager of yet another financial services firm and bookstore clerk.
6. Five places that you’ve lived:
Baltimore, Richmond, Northern VA, and the eastern shore. That’s it!
7. Five things that you did yesterday:
Worked, ate pizza for lunch, watched an episode of 30 Rock, played on the computer and went to bed. (Fast lane, yes?)
8. Five people you would want to get to know more about:
IRL? Not that many, actually. hehe I’m not even sure I want to know more about Hal or Cookie (that part is a lie, actually. I’d love to know more about the “real†person behind their persona). I have a couple friends who are sort of mysterious that I’d love to know on a different level but that’s all I can think of.
9. Abortion: for or against it?
I am for a woman’s right to make her own choices. It’s not my business nor should it be my business what someone else does. I have control over one body – mine and that’s all that I need worry about.
10. Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
Fail? What the hell kind of question is this? In fact, I think we’d be better off by far with more feminine energy in this world. By far.
11. Do you believe in the death penalty?
I used to but I don’t know anymore. I guess if pressed, I’d have to say no, I don’t agree with it.
12. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Not sure about this one. On one hand, going along with my pro-choice stance, I’d be inclined to say whatever you choose to do with your body is not my business. OTOH, I think it’s been shown that using marijuana slows reaction times and tends to blur better judgment. I’d rather not have my cab driver under the influence, you know? I don’t have a pony in the race since I’ve never even tried this so it doesn’t affect me, per se.
13. Are you for or against premarital sex?
To be consistent, I’d say that the choices someone makes with regard to their own sexuality belong entirely to them. Whether someone chooses sex before marriage is not up for my judgment. (If I had to pick a side, I’d say I’d rather people have sex before marriage so if there are quirky issues, they have time and space to work them out. I don’t see anything bad about it unless you have it and it’s not what you really wanted. And that’s another issue entirely.)
14. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
Absolutely. It will not cause the entire downfall of society and it’s no one’s business as to who another can love and/or marry. If you don’t feel same sex marriage is for you, don’t have one. But denying an entire group of people the rights you are accorded just because of your sexual orientation is 100% wrong, in my opinion.
15. Do you think it’s wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA? This is an oddly worded question. In a perfect world, people would be able to find work and support their family in their native country. The fact that many Mexicans leave their country and come here and are willing to live as undocumented citizens says to me that things must be realllly bad there to take that chance. There are problems all the way around. I don’t think it’s wrong so much as sad. 16. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen? I believe it’s that in several states already, isn’t it? Just because you set the legal age at X, doesn’t mean that those who are <X won’t get their hands on it if they can. Leave it at 21 is my opinion. 17. Should the war in Iraq be called off? 1. It’s not a war, it’s an occupation and an illegal one at that. 2. President Obama is doing what he can to remove our troops from there so as not to endanger their life and 3. I wish with all my heart that we could go back in time and resist even going there in the first place. So much lost – people, money, goodwill. We’d be in a different place as a nation if we had all been paying attention and realized how much we were lied to. 18. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree? I think what one chooses to do with their own body is their business as I’ve said thirty-seven times previously. This includes suicide. I cannot imagine having to make these choices in my life and I have enormous compassion for those who do. The largest concern I have is that some will (as they do) find a way to make a big-ass profit off this rather than work with individuals who feel this is their only option. I don’t like that part of it at all. 19. Do you believe in spanking your children? I don’t have children so this is a moot point for me but I don’t think you should hit your child, especially out of anger and frustration. I don’t know that spanking ever had a positive effect on me or caused me to change my ways about anything. 20. Do you worry that others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
No, I don’t. I can’t control that and even if I could, what’s the point? I am who I am.



moar funny pictures
Remember my other “Oh hell, I’m in a fog” post? I’m there again, a mere fifteen days later. Not even floaties last night could help. Outside of one thing going on that I can’t control, stuff is fine so I don’t know what the damn fog is all about. Work has been very busy and somewhat stressful but we’re on the down side of the week so that’s probably not it. I just feel … foggy. And grumpy. Nothing is making me happy at all. (Except whining which I do so love, as you know.) My two-year old was buying things again (a book and a new mouse) which is usually an indication that she’s not happy. Might be time to have a chat with her. Usually, floaties make her happy but that didn’t do it at all last night. (sigh)
Announcement: Cousin O’Cool and husband have asked me and Duty to be new baby’s godparents! WHEEE!! Duty has accepted this with a vengeance and has taken to calling himself “The Godfather” and told me in no uncertain terms yesterday that I cannot append the (boy) baby’s name with Bella.
(Backstory, Cousin O’Cool was hardcore into the Twilight series and got me reading it. When she announced she was pregnant, I was sure (SURE!) it was a girl and that she must be called Bella. But, uh, not a girl or else it’s a girl with a dangly bit. At any rate, I planned to call him (whatever name they choose)Bella. (Like: Peterbella or JoeBella … you get the idea.) Cousin loves and indulges my whimsy but not THE GODFATHER. (Since he doesn’t read this here blog, I’ll mention off the cuff that he has what we will call “gender issues” – going completely nuts if they put a bow on Max or something. See? Issues.))
So, I plan to call my baby (something)Bella just not in front of The Godfather Duty. (tee hee) Debut of (name)Bella? End of this month. There is baby-holding in my future and you know how happy that makes me. (Happy Happy Joy Joy)
I missed some good memeage over at Gal’s so I plan to be stealing from her soon. Glad she’s in a happy posting mood. I need some creative juice. (Where can I buy that in a bottle?)
















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