When your mantra for the month is “I finish what I start” DO NOT take on eleventy million more things than usual. (Hi Dissonance! We meet again!)
Dude at work has broken his “You do not exist” fast and has finally acknowledged me. So, that’s interesting. What’s more interesting to me is the dream I had about it last night where he came into my work area (called “the cage” – no kidding, it really is called that) and talked to me about why he was ignoring me. Something about his great aunt being sick and blah blah blah … not sure I remember all the details. In the dream, I told him it felt weird to me to be ignored – pointedly so. He apologized for that and we ended it on a good note. Odd, though. It was a very vivid dream and yes, I do believe souls can address things like that in the “dream time”. I found it interesting that he came to me about it. (He appeared in the cage which was doubly odd because brokers and most other staff are NEVER allowed in there for a variety of compliance reasons.)
Okay, so here’s where I get to say why I’m a dolt. I’ve taken on three big blog-related projects this month (really four if you count that blasted newsletter which I do). I am often lucky to finish ONE big project much less four! The other day I realized the folly of my actions. (I make that sound all calm but I was really like this: “Lisa!! What. Are. You. Doing?” and promptly went to sit in my (this time metaphorical) closet.) GAH!
I’m doing the Money Manifesting study group, the “31 days to a better blog” program with a big bunch of other chicks, and I’m also doing a group coaching for weightloss thing. Add to that the newsletter (which is really aggravating me that I can’t figure it out), moving my blog from WP.com to a hosted server (technical and scary) and readings and commenting and bears, oh my!
I mentioned to Duty that I jump in with both feet, get overwhelmed and then hide and don’t finish anything. So, I decided to not take on any more “projects” at this time (good start), diligently work at the ones I have taken on (Angels, help me) and keep saying “I finish what I start.” Today, I plan to work extra hard at my projects with maybe a break for a dip in the pool. Baby steps, Lisa, Baby steps.
Finally, clearing off that other computer (yes, I am doing that!), I found this email between me and Lauren. It made me smile AND miss her so so so much (more than usual).
Lisa wrote:
How is it you are my bestest friend in the whole whole whole world? Because you know me inside and out.
I loves ya
From: Lauren
Sent: Thursday, August 05, 2004 1:30 PM
aww well yes, it is because we ARE the same inside and out!! and that’s tough to beat! ;D
loves you tooo
Aw, that post from Lauren was so sweet. There is nothing more comfortable than being around someone who knows you for what you are and likes you in spite of/because of. I'm so glad you're able to keep her around you, and call upon her when you need her. Keeps you strong.
I enjoyed the rest of your post because I have fallen off my project-wagon. And needed to be reminded, just like you, "Baby steps."