Yeah, Yeah, Yeah …. I’m here.
Traditionally, I do a “What I’m thankful for” post around this time o’year …. and I suppose I’ll get around to that Thursday morning. Until then, though, you’re stuck with me and troof days 22 and 23.
Day 22 â†’ Something you wish you hadnâ€™t done in your life.
Off the twenty bizillion things I wish I hadn’t done (dated a psychopath, let my mother dress me, get those two guinea pigs), the one I most wish I hadn’t done is go back to eating sugar after my surgery in 1997. I was sugar free for about 6 months because I heard it would do horrible things to your tummy (and weight loss) if you ate it. But I succumbed, calling my friend to ask her (she was over 2 years out of surgery) if I could have six peanut M&Ms or would it kill me. I wish she said the latter. Alas, here I sit, 13 years and many pounds later, still digging on the sugar. Poops.
Day 23 â†’ Something you wish you had done in your life.
Shall I get maudlin here for you? I wish that I had been able to have a baby. By the time I got around to even thinking about it, my body had other ideas and closed up shop fast. I would have sucked as a 40 year old mom so I bow, as always, to the infinite wisdom of the Universe. But had I made different choices in my earlier days, I’d have had a child. It would have made me a completely different person (as those things do) but I’m sure I would have gotten just as many (if not more) lessons.
My family has been so great, providing me with lots of peeps to love (looking at you, Niece of Artsy-Fartsy, Godson of Love and the best Luke Skywalker around) and the opportunity to have as close to a child in this world as I had in Lauren. I have an abundance of love and that’s really the best thing. So, next lifetime, perhaps a child. She will be named Sophie and will be an avid reader and blogger and incipient cat lady, like her mother.
Yep, that’s some maudlin ass shit, innit??