Next week, I’ll be traveling to Park City, Utah for a 3-day retreat with my mastermind group. I had a blast when we met up in Arizona in January and since then, some of my favorites in that group have shifted and left.
We have three new women in there whom I have not yet met. One of them seems kind of spacey to me (like I can’t wrap my head around her energy) and I can’t get a read on the other two. Meeting in person will be fun, though.
All my physical imperfections roar loudly to remind me that I am never going to have straight teeth (I really don’t want dentures, you guys. I so don’t!) or a thin body (healthy? Yes, I have that and I’d take chubs and healthy over thin and unhealthy but you know what I mean.).
I dress like a dork and never really look put together or stylish. I buy shoes for the personality inside me but my chubs doesn’t balance well on tippy heels and so that personality stays in the closet.
I am reminded (AGAIN!) that I am not at home in my body. It’s like this foreign entity separate from my head and my heart. It gets in the way and it holds me back. But it’s the vehicle my soul chose for this go-round.
(Next time? I’m choosing a body that flows with my soul rather than making my soul fight against it.)
Anyway, we are having new professional pictures done along with a hair/makeup person making us pretty so it’s probably the best I’ll look for a while. The only thing I don’t want is a professional picture that doesn’t resemble the walking-around me.
One practitioner I know has a LOVELY headshot on her site. Her hair is all curled and she just sparkles. When she posts pictures of her or videos, it is not that sparkly person. No curls, no radiance. It’s like a shock to the system whenever I see her.
I really don’t want that. I may not be the most gorgeous glamour kitty but I’m me. And I want my pictures to reflect that real person in all her “flawsomeness”. That’s important to me.
Have I mentioned that I love staying in hotels? Especially by myself. I can take baths and sit in the silence. No dogs, no snoring, no nothing. Just me and tubs and quiet. (I’m so weird, I know.)
Looking forward to traveling, spending time with my mentor (whom I adore!) and those who are in the same entrepreneurial space with me. I’m ready to go to the next level of visibility. (I think. Don’t hold me to that.)