Despite how much I whine and complain on here, I am not a fan of drama. And being pulled back into it (and it looming large) has really thrown me off my center.
So, I’m pulling myself back to that space because that’s how I must move forward.
I’ve cut the energetic cord of attachment between me and YOPOE so that there’s no more tugging of emotions back and forth. I will go in, do the work I’m paid to do and hold a higher vibration. When the Universe deems the time to be right to open the door to leave, I will go. My intention is to be shorter than a year and I’m holding to that.
PI will survive and thrive because it IS my work – not this. I won’t allow anyone or anything to pull me off that space. Duty and I had a talk the other night and I don’t think he sees this as a real business, despite my protestations to the contrary. I understand why he feels that way and I also understand that it reflects back to me ways *I* don’t take it seriously.
Time to (wo)man up and keep the ship moving in the direction I want to go. Not sure yet how that looks but that’s okay.
Onward (again).
(Thanks to Gorky for the pep talk and the reminder that I control how PI shows up and it’s entirely MY decision to remain in my center.)
Sometimes what we do is our life’s work. Other times what we do is simply our job. It’s valuable to remember that sometimes all we owe our employers is, as you say, just “what you’re paid to do.”
Yes, Gal, I sure do get that. I’m trying to be all zen about the position in which I’ve placed myself and trusting, trusting, trusting.