Hello all three friends,
Your intrepid reporter is back from a jaunt to Seattle to see Cousin O’Love and family. Barely three weeks after I returned from a jaunt to Utah, Duty and I went to Seattle to celebrate our 16th anniversary and Cousin’s 34th.
I wasn’t as taken with Seattle as I imagined I would be. Tons and tons of traffic and crazy drivers + not truly knowing where we were going + Duty getting spazzy because I wasn’t giving him the directions and/or information the way he could make sense of it = meltdown for me on day one. I was ready to turn around and go home. Fortunately, D and I talked it out and he was much less spazztastic the rest of the trip.
It’s always a challenge to be out of your routine for any length of time and I had just gotten back into my room and set up my office space when it was time to leave again.
Because of this, I came home floating somewhere off in space. The energies are (as usual these days) wonky which doesn’t help so I’ve yet to touch ground. This was not (IMO) the best re-entry into my Purple Saturation work. I did three sessions today, one right after another and I felt the energy was off. I was off. I don’t think it impacted the sessions in any material way (or Prince would surely let me know) but I wasn’t in the right Lisa-space for it.
Saw this quote today and it hit me – I am not sad. I am totally in depression meltdown once again thanks to the dumb thyroid meds. I’m going to have to up my AD levels again because today, I have zero fucks to give about anything. Prince. Business. New bathroom/bedroom. Don’t care. Just don’t.
“When you’re depressed, nothing has any meaning. When you’re sad, everything does.” Gloria Steinem on difference between sad and depressed.
I’m sure this will pass. For right now, though, everything feels gray and murky.
Hi, Lisa!
*Alert: this is a novel but I would be honored if you would A) take the time at some point to read it thoroughly and B) not consider me totally nuts for being so long-winded, LOL;) I just want you to know that this is totally atypical for me to reach out like this. I have been reading your blog for years and only today decided to contact you.
If you would be so kind as to not publish this comment publicly on your blog, I would be most appreciative. I am one of your avid readers (I am sure there are more than three of us out here, LOL!) and you worked with me as you were getting one of your certifications. At the time that I worked with you, I totally did not resonate with you telling me that going to grad school (I believe I was in my early 40s at this point) was something I would fit in with at all. I told you that I felt I should at least give it a try and that I did. But it was a huge clusterfuck and I realized that it was not me at all. You told me I would be doing this sort of thing (teaching) but in a more spiritual context and I could not see how in bloody hell that would ever transpire. NO clue whatsoever so it seemed absurd to me at the time. I don’t regret giving it a try because in that moment it felt like the thing to do. But I was not fully embracing my mission.
Fast forward to 2015 and I began doing what had always been a hobby–astrology. I started posting videos to YouTube and although I didn”t get a client for two months and almost quit out of a sense of defeat, in the 11th hour I got my first client and then it all started to flow. Interesting how that happens, eh? I can’t say I haven’t had ups and downs along the way but even though it is still not a predictable bare minimum profit each month, I have added other income streams and anyway, this is for the long term. I get a lot of repeat customers and I believe I am going beyond mere divination (which to me is almost counter my message of self-empowerment) and helping clients see patterns that tend to not serve them. I did a crash course on the Tarot and now incorporate that as well into my services.
Wow, this is a pretty long-winded message to THANK YOU, LISA, for your assistance on my journey and to give you two observations based on recent posts regarding your feelings at the moment. You seem to link your low moods to a drug for your thyroid. Then why on Earth are you taking it???! Do you not see value in the natural approach? Please do not be blinded by those in authority. I do not have much regard for the standard medical profession, sorry to say. Yes, just my opinion and in your case I have sat on it in the past but it seems to be something which hasn’t gone away and when you linked it to the med, I had to chime in. There is something which I believe is called nascent iodine and you could always consult with a napropath or the like if you are leery of just taking it on your own. The point is that drugs do not heal–only mask. It has to be holistic so diet, attitude, everything. Hope I am not pissing you off being so strident but oh well, that’s how I roll, LOL. The other thing is that you mentioned writing a novel and YES, do it! But you have that same chatty, lively style that is pefect for a Young Adult novel. I self-published in that genre last year. A friend of my mother’s bought a copy right after I told her about it and then…nothing. I kept checking the sales stats–total flat-line. I gave up looking and then just recently I checked Amazon and was floored. In July and August I had sold multiple copies of my novel! I was blown away. Now, it’s less than 20 to date but I have no doubt that when I publish my next book that will all change. So perhaps the Universe nudged me to write to you today to encourage you to go for it.
I turned 50 last December and until I began my new chapter in life, my 40s sucked absolute shit. I could definitely identify with you on your feelings of meh. But I challenge your statement that you just don’t care. Bullshit! I think you care quite deeply but perhaps there is something or some things that are blocking you from showing up in a totally authentic way. I do not bill myself as a psychic. At best, I feel that I am more perceptive than the average person out there so I sense things that are not on being vocalized. You and I were talking and I wanted to know your Sun sign (Libra, as I recall) and then I asked what your Moon sign was (is it Scorpio?) and I sensed this wall coming up. It was like: that is private info–don’t go there, LOL! But maybe your overly compliant Libra felt obligated to comply. So maybe you are going along with the program in some way and now is the time to shed that, come what may. I don’t know–just felt compelled to say that to you.
Thanks sooo much for your piece of my puzzle, Liza, and all good things to you! Ruth
Love to you! Energies have been hella weird, everything is changing once again.
I’m glad you two worked it out. As a barren spinster, I’m always heartened by other people’s enduring love stories. I’m comforted that, as you wrestle with what Churchill referred to as “the black dog,” Duty has your back.