When your mantra for the month is “I finish what I start” DO NOT take on eleventy million more things than usual. (Hi Dissonance! We meet again!)

We interrupt this whining for some important news:

Dude at work has broken his “You do not exist” fast and has finally acknowledged me. So, that’s interesting. What’s more interesting to me is the dream I had about it last night where he came into my work area (called “the cage” – no kidding, it really is called that) and talked to me about why he was ignoring me. Something about his great aunt being sick and blah blah blah … not sure I remember all the details. In the dream, I told him it felt weird to me to be ignored – pointedly so. He apologized for that and we ended it on a good note. Odd, though. It was a very vivid dream and yes, I do believe souls can address things like that in the “dream time”. I found it interesting that he came to me about it. (He appeared in the cage which was doubly odd because brokers and most other staff are NEVER allowed in there for a variety of compliance reasons.)

Hello Dissonance, my old friend

Okay, so here’s where I get to say why I’m a dolt. I’ve taken on three big blog-related projects this month (really four if you count that blasted newsletter which I do). I am often lucky to finish ONE big project much less four! The other day I realized the folly of my actions. (I make that sound all calm but I was really like this: “Lisa!! What. Are. You. Doing?” and promptly went to sit in my (this time metaphorical) closet.) GAH!

I’m doing the Money Manifesting study group, the “31 days to a better blog” program with a big bunch of other chicks, and I’m also doing a group coaching for weightloss thing. Add to that the newsletter (which is really aggravating me that I can’t figure it out), moving my blog from WP.com to a hosted server (technical and scary) and readings and commenting and bears, oh my!

I mentioned to Duty that I jump in with both feet, get overwhelmed and then hide and don’t finish anything. So, I decided to not take on any more “projects” at this time (good start), diligently work at the ones I have taken on (Angels, help me) and keep saying “I finish what I start.” Today, I plan to work extra hard at my projects with maybe a break for a dip in the pool. Baby steps, Lisa, Baby steps.

And I love her

Finally, clearing off that other computer (yes, I am doing that!), I found this email between me and Lauren. It made me smile AND miss her so so so much (more than usual).

Lisa wrote:
How is it you are my bestest friend in the whole whole whole world? Because you know me inside and out.
I loves ya

From: Lauren
Sent: Thursday, August 05, 2004 1:30 PM
aww well yes, it is because we ARE the same inside and out!! and that’s tough to beat! ;D
loves you tooo

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(I love this. Duty says “You love everything.” and he’s right. I do. Everything. Even Dick Cheney. —> okay, not everything.)

Did I tell you that the Angels told me to let Duty pick my manifesting word for this month? Feh. He chose “Follow-through”. (Stabs him) And they also told me to allow him to chose one of the actions to embody that vibration. (Stabs Angels) He chose this: I have a desktop computer that I haven’t touched since 2005. (no lie) It has many, many of Lauren’s emails on it from back before I used Gmail. I really want to keep those but that entails firing it up and doing some serious saving. This is (one of) my task(s) for the month.

My mantra: “I finish what I start.” (note to self: start nothing and you’ll be home free! hah)

(sigh)

So, yeah. Have I started it? Nope. Does he remind me of it often? Yep. (stabs self)

Lots of stabby action going on. What’s that about?

Read all about it here.

You know you want to hear what your guides have to say to you, right??

Oh, and Gal – fun quiz today! I think I’m gonna have to make one up and watch you beat the heck out of the other two readers! heh

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I am so happy to see the weekend wide open before me. I’m heading to Charlottesville with my seminary/travel buddy Dana to learn all about Wild Earth Animal Essences. Even if the class were a bust, I’d have fun just hanging out with her. She’s about the only person I could allow into my space when we were at the Seminary because she has such a gentle spirit. As I am in tune with the angelic realms, Dana is that in tune with the earth realm and is such a good steward of Mother Earth. She brings a gentle groundedness that is easy for me to be around. It will be a fun weekend.

In other news, my pal Jody left this comment yesterday and I could feel my Angels speaking through her telling me “get on the stick!”:

Okay, I feel like I have to say something about…..SOMETHING. You have an engaging writing style AND you gave me a terrifiic reading. The way you’ll be able to stop doing a job you hate is RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU.

Practically Intuitive, and all that that implies. I don’t believe it’s a matter of MAKING YOURSELF do it. I believe it’s a matter of believing in who you are.

I should know about such things. I can be the most self-sabotaging person in the universe, and I get how frustrating it is. But the bottom-line is this: you have a gift. Now use it.

It’s true that doing this work brings me great fulfillment and joy and while I *think* I have the skills to do this as a profession, she’s right. It’s a matter of *believing* that I do. I best put that intention out there and ask the Universe for all the support it can offer. (And thank you, Jody, for the nudge. As always.)

And now, I *believe* I’ll go get another cup of coffee! Have a good day and a lovely weekend. Welcome back, Gal! I missed you.

Whew! Finally finished the readings (all 35 of them) and am glad to have that done with (or get an ass-whupping from my own Guides) and what wonderful feedback! I was going to print some but it felt too much like I was tooting my own horn so you’ll just have to imagine it. I am definitely ready to go public with this now. Next step is getting my own little basic website up.

Surprise! I am actually very anal about things like that and can spend hours and hours seeking out just the right font. And that’s not good and it surely doesn’t help get the site out there. So, my agreement with my own self this time (not with the angels) is to put one up even if it’s simple and without the perfect font. Just have a place to point people to go when they want to know more about my readings and me. (I don’t think the general population is ready for ye olde Snarkypants, hmm?)

In other news – cookies are done! And I think I’ve eaten enough to keep me away from them for years months, oh hell, you get it. I love these cookies! Therefore, I am taking them into work for my buddy, PattyMac. She’s a size 0 so can eat them without concern. I am not quite a 0 so, you know. Not so much without the concern. Pics of cookies posted later.

And … started a new puzzle. 504 pieces. I cannot begin to tell you how overwhelmed I am looking at all those pieces. Give me your deepest emotional pain and I am right there with you. But give me 504 pieces of a puzzle and I am totally overwhelmed and want to run away. This, my friends, just goes to show you how hard it is for me to come down out of my little mental world into the physical and, of course, exactly the reason my coach has suggested this project. Blargh.

Oh yeah, and it’s Monday. Wheee!

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… I got answers! (sort of, anyway)

The Darling Gal asked this question in the comments on the post “To-Do List from the angels”

“Just woo-woo curious — Do you ever know the final outcome? Do the angels know what’s going to happen and report, or can they change what’s going to happen? Sorry if these are remedial questions, but I’m new to understanding the woo-woo.”

Good question! I have a tendency to think that everyone understands “the woo” in the same way I do so I always appreciate questions that remind me to explain myself better. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to do that, Gal!

I shall caveat my answer with this: this is how *I* understand it to be. I am not saying that it’s THE way (mostly since I don’t think there is ONE way for anything) but it’s the way it feels to me. That said, let me see if I can clarify things.

Guides and teachers cannot interfere with your free will. You are the one who always makes the choices and can change them at any time. Imagine a board of advisors who sit with you at a round table. You are sharing with them what your intentions are for the next year. They can offer you suggestions as to what might be a good way to get there. They can also offer alternatives. In the end, though, it’s always down to you to make the final decision.

In addition, they cannot offer guidance unless you invite them to do so. The only time (again, as I understand it) they can jump in unbidden is if your life is in danger and it’s not your soul’s wish to leave the physical plane. Unless you’re Bella in Twilight, that doesn’t happen too often.

In my case, my Guides know that my heart’s desire (besides David Cook, being tall and thin and baby-holding) is to broaden my work as an intuitive. I’ve clearly put that intention out there and allowed the Universe to assist me with it. My part in it is to remain conscious (as opposed to in a coma? heh) and note the “coincidences” that come to me with regard to that intention. Like the blue balloons that I got as a response to my hysterical whining in the car that one time, or that I got two requests for intuitive readings and the individuals offered to pay me for them. (Not that it’s such a shock but I didn’t ask for payment at all and it was a really nice validation that the work I do will help support me financially.)

Gal also asked if the angels know the outcome – because the free will thing comes into play, the answer is no. You put the intention out there and ask for help. Then you pay attention to what comes in front of you – opportunities, coincidences, shifts and changes in things around you. At any time, you can change your route and your guides will be right there alongside you like a trusted team of advisors and friends who want only your highest good. Doesn’t mean weird stuff won’t happen to you as you move along that path. But if you ask “what is the lesson in this?” and really try to understand it from that perspective, the weird stuff flows through a bit faster.

I hope that answered your questions, G. Again, this is from my reading but more importantly, my experience. The readings I’ve done for everyone have been like that. The Guides nudge you a bit where you are slacking off, or help you see things that you might not notice. I truly find that the more I work with them collaboratively, the more things seem to come together and flow.

Ever since I made the offer to do intuitive readings for friends on a forum, I have had such an amazing sense of heightened awareness. It’s as if I’ve taken a leap to a whole new level. I’m still working through them (have about 8 to go – there were about 32 requests total) and do about 2-3 at a time. The feedback has been great – it’s nice to hear that what comes through resonates with those who asked. It’s also helped remind me that *this* is my work here at this time. The more I do it, the clearer I get.

Which brings me to …. the To-Do list I got yesterday morning. It was for a week’s worth of activities.

1. Finish all readings by end of the week
2. work on new (401 piece!!) puzzle
3. ride bike for 15 mins 3x
4. work on website for offering intuitive readings
5. Once that’s up and ready, post on Twitter with special offer for readings
6. Apply to Slade Roberson’s Professional Intuitive Training Program (more on this in a bit)

It was literally *that* clear. And you guys know that when I get guidance (especially when it’s that specific), I am bound to do it. If I don’t, I usually get a swift kick in the ass in the form of that horrible “Why didn’t I listen?” feeling and consequences to follow. It took me about 3 of those before I got it. Not fun.

I think much of the clarity has to do with my action lately – getting out there and offering the readings. For me, doing the reading is the easy part. It’s putting myself out there as an intuitive that is a bit harder to do. (Who knows why? I mean, if you know me at all IRL or even here, I’m pretty open about being quite the woo-woo chick so that whole fear of being out there baffles me.)

Andrea Hess, whom I found through Slade, has created a course on manifesting which is, honestly, amazing in how it takes a pretty huge concept and brings it down into actionable steps. She manages to bridge the piece that most people leave out – taking action here in the physical in addition to setting the energetic vibration. I’m going to talk more about this in another post and share with you what I’m working on around that. I mention it here because it’s all tied in together with the huge downloads of information and guidance I’m getting.

The time for me sitting around and spacing out is, for the most part, gone. I’m definitely not sitting my ass in the middle of the road, waiting and hoping. I’m (finally) moving and as I move, things shift in pretty profound ways. They have already and I trust – TRUST – with all my heart the guidance that I’m getting. I don’t know the end result, don’t know how I’m going to get there. I do know that I will understand what the next right step is and as long as I continue to take action, it will be to my highest good.

So, there you have it. Lots going on, no?