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Happiness is a butterfly – Day 2

August 2, 2011 Written by Lisa

This month I chose the word “freedom” as my manifesting intention.  Since I sit in a cage at work, it adds to my feeling of being in prison so I’m looking to bring in the energy of being free.

As I walked into work this morning, this lovely butterfly (alas, dearly departed) showed up on the steps inside the parking garage.  I took a picture because it was just so beautiful.

Later in the day I looked up the meaning of a butterfly totem and of course, as the Universe would have it, some of the energies associated with it were  …. freedom and transformation.   No surprise there, eh?  Gotta love me some serendipity!

Also, as I noticed it had yellow in it and that was Lauren’s favorite color, I said hello to her.  Like a chiming crystal bell I heard her voice in my head and she was *right there*.

We had a lovely conversation on the way in to the office and when I asked her if she wanted me to pass on any messages to her family she said “They all connect with me in their own way.”  That was so sweet.  Just like her.  (Gosh, I miss her.)

The butterfly and the unexpected visit with the Goddaughter of Love (and Angels) made it a happy start to the day.

 

 

 

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Forever my girl

March 5, 2011 Written by Lisa

She’s forever my girl

.. to paraphrase Paula(r) Abdul.

Today marks the fifth anniversary of Lauren’s passing from the earth. Life truly isn’t the same without her. I wrote that last year and it will always be so. Many times I wish I could time travel back to when she was here even if just to hug her one last time. It’s not for me to know why her soul chose the path it did but I am beyond grateful to have had the experience of being in her life and having her be such a special part of mine.

Nothing will dim her light – not on earth and not in the Heavens. Love and miss you, La.

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Truthiness

November 23, 2010 Written by Lisa

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah …. I’m here.

Traditionally, I do a “What I’m thankful for” post around this time o’year …. and I suppose I’ll get around to that Thursday morning. Until then, though, you’re stuck with me and troof days 22 and 23.

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Off the twenty bizillion things I wish I hadn’t done (dated a psychopath, let my mother dress me, get those two guinea pigs), the one I most wish I hadn’t done is go back to eating sugar after my surgery in 1997. I was sugar free for about 6 months because I heard it would do horrible things to your tummy (and weight loss) if you ate it. But I succumbed, calling my friend to ask her (she was over 2 years out of surgery) if I could have six peanut M&Ms or would it kill me. I wish she said the latter. Alas, here I sit, 13 years and many pounds later, still digging on the sugar. Poops.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Shall I get maudlin here for you? I wish that I had been able to have a baby. By the time I got around to even thinking about it, my body had other ideas and closed up shop fast. I would have sucked as a 40 year old mom so I bow, as always, to the infinite wisdom of the Universe. But had I made different choices in my earlier days, I’d have had a child. It would have made me a completely different person (as those things do) but I’m sure I would have gotten just as many (if not more) lessons.

My family has been so great, providing me with lots of peeps to love (looking at you, Niece of Artsy-Fartsy, Godson of Love and the best Luke Skywalker around) and the opportunity to have as close to a child in this world as I had in Lauren. I have an abundance of love and that’s really the best thing. So, next lifetime, perhaps a child. She will be named Sophie and will be an avid reader and blogger and incipient cat lady, like her mother.

Yep, that’s some maudlin ass shit, innit??

30 Days of Honesty, Pretty Sure Ive gone insane

Ten guesses on this one, folks

November 8, 2010 Written by Lisa

And no, it’s not Cookie (although he runs a close 45th or so).

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Yeah, you knew it would be the Goddaughter of Love, right? I picked her because she truly was the closest thing to a child I had in this lifetime. I am beyond thankful that I got to have that relationship with her so that I could understand (even if only the tiniest bit) how to love someone with all your heart and soul all the time. Lauren and I shared true unconditional love and it’s enriched my life so much for having had that wonderful girl as my sweet goddaughter as long as I did. What got me through the days as it became clear she was leaving us was the unshakable belief that I’d see her again and we’d pick up right where we left off. We’ve been through lives before with each other and I suspect we’ll be together again for many more.

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Wenches and rums sound good to meh

September 21, 2010 Written by Lisa

funny pictures-'Xcuse meh... I wuz told there wuld be wenches an rums?
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All LOLcats, all the time, right?

Something is awry with my doggie, Max. His tail is tucked way the hell under his butt and periodically he starts shaking for no reason as if he’s scared to death of something. Not sure what the dealio is. He was fine and Duty took him to get his nails trimmed Monday – I noticed the tail-tucking action last night and all day today. He is getting older and is losing his hearing a bit and has a cataract in one eye … just an old, old doggie and I know his health isn’t quite what it used to be. I hope he comes around soon. I haz a big sad about it.

No sads otherwise, though.

* Duty’s health issues are relatively resolved with the placement of stent #2 for his blocked artery. No stories to tell this time, kids. It was easy peasy YEY!
* Appointment with endocrinologist in 2 weeks to see WTF is up with my damn hormones. YEY.
* Trip to Maine coming soon! YEY
* I get to hold my behbeh and be called “Aunt WeeHah” by Luke this weekend. YEY!

What’s the haps out there? I have Google Analytics on this blog and Practically Intuitive and it’s rather disheartening to learn that yes, in fact, I do have but four readers (and I love each and every damn one a’youse!) and lots of spambots and freaks. I don’t publicize this blog much because who else would be remotely interested in my blatherings? My snark isn’t quite what it used to be. Still. Lauren and I always said we’d write no matter who read it (or didn’t, as the case may be) and I shall carry that mission forward. I know she’s reading it on a Kindle in Heaven so I should count her in the total. Officially now FIVE readers!

W00t!

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