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To err, human

November 6, 2010 Written by Lisa

30 Days of Honesty rolls on. Today, Day 4:

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Long story:

When I was just a year old, I was given a baby doll for Christmas. She was named Angel (and yes, my mom said I named her so you know I was hooked up to them early on.) and I pretty much went nowhere without her. Cousin O’Love really hated her and used to step on her head. (I could go Freudian on you about that but I digress.) Suffice to say that Angel and I were inseparable for much of my childhood.

When I was about ten years old, we got some new neighbors in the apartment next door – the new maintenance man, his wife and their two daughters. The mom was really young, as I recall. Maybe 18 or so and had two kids already. I used to babysit for her now and again and got to be friendly with them. I brought Angel over there so they could play with her. Something happened and the maintenance guy got fired and the family had to move and do it quickly so they packed up and left, almost in the middle of the night. Of course, Angel was packed up with them.

I did some investigative work (no idea how I did this since there was no Google at the time) and found the phone number of the couple, called the nice lady and asked for Angel back. She was sorry she took her and said she didn’t have a car but I could come pick her up and gave me her address. I ran in and told Mom who said “I’m not driving to that neighborhood. It’s not a safe place.” and that was that. Angel was gone.

As you can imagine, I was heartbroken. Cried and cried and cried to my dad. (Since he was blind, he couldn’t drive. Mom was the driver in the house.) He sat me down and said this: “Okay, so she has Angel now. That little girl doesn’t have much in her life and now she has a piece of you. Maybe that will help her somehow.” And that has stuck with me all these years (40 of them, actually). It really did make me feel better about losing Angel.

Years ago, before Mom died, I asked her why she didn’t go and get Angel. She said she couldn’t remember why and that she was sorry for not going. I didn’t want to forgive her then.

I will now.

Mom, I know you hear me when I say this: I understand that a lot was going on and I forgive you for not understanding what losing Angel truly meant to me.
I love you.

(Let’s hope Day 5 is cheerier! If I could scan in a picture of Angel, you’d laugh. She was just this dorky doll with no hair. But I loved her.)

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I did it!

May 28, 2010 Written by Lisa

GO UNIVERSE! Woot Woot!!

I got a couple last minute requests and the amounts were over and above the suggested donation and that put me right up close to the goal of $400. As I was telling Duty about it, he said he meant to tell me earlier that he’d like me to do a reading for a friend of his and he’d kick in the last $20!!

YEY!!! I’m happy that I did it, that so many people wanted readings and that the manifesting piece of it worked out perfectly even though, as noted, I lost a bit of steam last week. Apparently, the Universe decided I needed a boost and jumped right in. Gotta love it!

So, a big thank you to my fans Jody and The Gal for helping carry me through this (dissonance and all) and for being so supportive of my work. Thanks, too, to my friend Jen-Jen for being one of my good cheerleaders on Facebook! :)

What have we learned? We learned that we can get through dissonance, we can come out from behind our curtain and CLAIM who we are (why am I talking in the third person?) and we are ever so much more sure that this is truly our soul work. I’d say that’s a good thing, yes?

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Resolutions

March 22, 2010 Written by Lisa

Don’t go checking your calendars yet, peeps. It’s still March and not January 1st. But I feel the need to get moving and one way to do that is to make some commitments out loud. Usually they are made just to my cats and the angels; however, I think spelling it out might be a good thing.

I hereby resolve to do the following:

Go to the gym 6 days a week
This is what happens when you don’t realize that the words that are coming out of your mouth might have been better off tumbling around in your head. I mentioned to Duty that the “Drag your ass for Hope” with David Cook happens in less than two months. Last year, we walked it in the pouring rain and my butt and legs hurt so much that I made a promise to myself to be in better shape for it this year. And here I am, in crappier shape and a few (thousand) pounds heavier than I was before. That sucks. What did I say out loud? “I wonder if doing the treadmill every day would actually make a dent in things for me.” Yeah. Don’t let those words come out of the thought bubble. Now damn Duty has challenged me to do just that. Feh. I did go today, though. Cousin O’Cool suggested the “Couch to 5K” program and while I probably won’t be running, at the very least it will give me incentive and a goal to work toward.

Post once weekly to Practically Intuitive
Not surprisingly, I am completely disengaged with my job. It’s easy work but I am increasingly annoyed with people bugging me and the stupid shit I have to do. It’s so not fulfilling in the way that I want. What does do that for me? Doing readings, coaching, and generally, spending time in that higher vibration. If I’m annoyed at what I am doing, then it is up to me to create what I DO want and move into that. The only way to do it is to DO IT. So, I’m committing to writing one post a week on PI and getting some energy going over there.

I’m only giving myself two because I tend to make a big list, get overwhelmed and accomplish nothing. This time, just these two for now. I gotta get moving. I realized that I was sitting in a pit of loneliness which usually makes me feel worse about things and it’s not until I came out of that pit did I even realize how immersed I was.

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Do I hafta go to work?

March 8, 2010 Written by Lisa

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I’d rather stay home and ponder questions of the Universe such as why Miley Cyrus was at the Oscars or was the bra I got for free yesterday a gift from the angels for having been stuck with a new cashier who took 25 minutes (YES, 25 minutes) to ring up two pairs of pants, a shirt and a bra. It wasn’t until I got home that I realized she didn’t ring up the bra. I am open to receiving the gifts of the Universe. (My coach suggested that I work on receiving since I seem to have a problem with that so I gratefully accept the gift of a bra.)

While Gal is over there posting her heart out (I can tell she’s feeling better by sheer volume!), I am stuck in a grumpy rut. Trying on clothes yesterday was a horror show. It reminded me that I best get my ass on track NOW with gym and eating because it ain’t working what I’m currently doing (no gym and eating what-the-fuck-ever). I look and feel hideous. And this with spring/summer on the way, too. Not good, Lisa. Not good at all.

Had an interesting astrology reading yesterday from Nancy over at Starlight Press. At least online, Nancy uses her immense talents by looking at the political climate with an eye toward the astrological energies that are afoot. She’s been quite accurate for many, many years and doesn’t hesitate to speak about the challenges we all face now and in the future. Anyway, I loved talking with her and she filled me in on what the energies are in my chart for the next three years. Again, free will comes into play so nothing is set in stone, but with the exception of something that will slow me down or restrain me from October – most of November, it all is very positive – especially as it relates to my spiritual work. There were more details, of course, but I’ll note for posterity that things seem to bust wide open for me end of 2012 into 2013. Remind me of that, k?

I’m happy to see the advent of spring on the horizon as was everyone else because the whole damn world was out and about yesterday. Stores and roads were packed. The snow is mostly melted on our front porch and I can see the two plants we have there peeping their little heads out asking “Is it safe to come out now??”

Off to shower and head into work. Have a happy day, all!

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Snowpocalypse Saturday 9

February 6, 2010 Written by Lisa

As you may or may not know, the entire Atlantic seaboard was blizzarded upon and we have (at last count) about two feet of snow outside. Peeps are all a’twitter on Twitter about it and I’m using it as an excuse to sit around and do nothing of note. (What’s that, you say? I don’t ever need an excuse to do that? Oh, well. Alrighty then.) So, in honor of Snowpocalypse 2010, here’s my Saturday 9.

Saturday 9: I Started a Joke

1. Tell us a joke that you think is funny. If you don’t tell jokes tell us why.
What do you call cheese that’s not yours?? NACHO CHEESE! hahahah

2. Where do you buy most of your clothes?
Wherever I find something that I like. All over the place, usually. Always looking for bargains at Coldwater Creek.

3. Which famous person would you like to meet? Why?
How cool would it be to have a party with Hal and Cookie? My head (and parts) would ‘plode, that’s for sure. Just to spend time chatting with Hal and listening to Cookie sing and laugh. My impression of Nirvana.

4. What is your ultimate ambition?
To conquer the world! And beyond! Then, drink a lot of coffee with cream.

5. Do you like to live in the area of your country or would you prefer something a little different?
I like where I live … near the water, near the city. Pretty calm and peaceful.

6. Has a newspaper or television reporter ever interviewed you? If so, what were the circumstances and what did you think when you read or saw what you said?
Nope, don’t think they have. Well, my friend Charlie is a reporter and he’s asked me questions so does that count? No? Poots.

7. What was the last CD/mp3 album that you purchased? How did you like it?
Matt Nathanson’s Some Mad Hope – saw him open for Cookie in VA Beach in July and he was great! Wonderful singer/songwriter.

8. Write down 5 songs you often listen to or that mean a lot to you.
I can’t make you love me/Bonnie Raitt, Sweetest Taboo/Sade, Make Me/MWK, Wish you were here/Incubus, and for the wonderfully angelic Goddaughter of Love – Float On/Modest Mouse

9. Do you or your partner usually begin intimacy?
What is this intimacy you speak of? I know not what that is. I suspect it is sorely lacking in the life of a Snarkela.

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