I surrender. Really. I do. As they say in AA, I am turning it all over to (Mother/Father) God. Oh, it’s nothing major or anything to fret about – just that there are certain situations (my weight being one of them) that I just can’t seem to get over, under, around. I’m tired of fighting it and trying to logic it out. I’m just turning it over and trusting that the right steps for my highest good will be shown and I’ll take action.
Saturday night I listened a binaural beat mp3 (you can read a lot more about it here) and I slept like a baby! Woke up feeling so good, it was amazing. Did it last night too and had some interesting experiences in my astral travels. (heh) But the mantra I keep using is “I surrender and I trust.” Scary but gotta do it. Gotta get through some residual yuck quick!
Something really cool this week: Andrea Hess (you know, my manifesting teacher) is offering a class called Inspired Income Mastery and as part of a bigger package, she offered six spots for personal mentoring and I made it in under the wire!! WOO-HOOOO!! It starts on Thursday and in addition to the class (all online – video and calls), I’ll have a 45 minute phone session every two weeks for twelve weeks. I could dance on the moon about that because she has been, unequivocally, the biggest influence on my life in the last year and I jumped at the opportunity to work with her directly because I know I’m ready for a big shift. My plan is to take Practically Intuitive full-time in early 2012 and this is all part of that. Wheeee! (Can you tell I’m happy?)
Anyway, that’s the haps. If you’ve never tried listening to binaural beats before, I really REALLY encourage you to do so. It’s pretty awesome.
Title: Were ya worried?
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Chello, peeps! Despite not updating for almost a week, I can say with all certainty that I am, indeed, still alive. YEY!
Every once in a while my second chakra gets clogged and I lose all ability to be creative and so SP goes dark. I’d love to shift the blame for that to someone/thing else but I can’t. It’s all mine.
Here’s a bulleted list of what’s been consuming my time this past week:
* Pilates: I love it! I cannot believe I’ve found something physical that totally takes me out of my head and plops me square into my body. The teacher is wonderful and I have such fun in the class that the hour flies by. It’s a bit pricey compared to a gym membership (10 weekly classes for $250) but even if I do it for just ten weeks, I think I will get a lot of benefit from it. I suspect it’s an integral piece of my growth in the coming year. I have to learn how carry big energy – just not through my body (think: expanding waistline).
* Angry Birds: Damn addictive game. I think I play this for about 35 minutes every night before bed. Curses to the girl who does my nails for hipping me to it. Is there an Intervention for Angry Birds??
* Speaking of Intervention - I love that show (unless they are showing heroin addicts shooting up through their toes. Eww!) We are fortunate to have no addicts in the family (food issues are a whole ‘nother thing for our group, though) so watching people go through this is fascinating to me. (That’s because it’s from the safety of my bed. I’d really hate all the attendant drama if it were real life.) The psychology major in me loves hearing the backstory – the things that caused the person to use drugs. Clearly I’m not alone in my addiction to the show: Fred Armisen over at Funny Or Die.
*My new candid reality addiction? Heavy. It’s not at all exploitative and I can relate to their stories (sadly). Don’t judge. At least I provide linkage, right?
* Exciting news! I am going to be working directly with Andrea Hess on her new program called “Inspired Income Mastery” In addition to the program itself (which looks hella cool), she offered a mentoring option to have six sessions with her on the phone. It’s a fabulous opportunity to get coaching/mentoring on a personal basis so I snatched it right up. Of all the teachers I’ve had, Andrea is the one that’s impacted me the most in practical day-to-day work. My goal this year is to get Practically Intuitive out there in full force so I can leave that really exciting and fun day job and fly! This is one step closer to that goal. Hold on to yer hats, kids!
(Damn, I wish I had her boobies. Just pretend this is me because in my fantasy life, it is! heh)
Finally, I’m coming to terms with stepping into the full energy of what I have chosen to do in this lifetime. (Sounds sooo serious, doesn’t it??) Someone close to me calls me the “High Priestess of WooWoo” and I realized that I carry a lot of “high priestess” energy but it’s always been hidden. Making that part of me fully visible requires courage and a willingness to stop hiding. I’m probably not explaining it well but that’s the energy I was talking about above – the one that I can carry with me – just not in my body.
When I put the intention out there to the Universe that I wanted PI to be fully sustaining by year end, I also accepted the work that goes with it. Not only are the energies speeding up in the macrocosm, but here in the microcosm as well. Look at all the shifts that have gone on in the country just since the beginning of the year. Things are speeding up, energetically. Lots going on that we cannot see but will impact us greatly. So, I’ve chosen to move with it and work on stuff that’s in my way now so I can fully and completely bring into form the intuitive practice I’ve been longing for. Wish me luck!
Whew! Lots to say, hmm?
** Picture from Deviant Art
So yeah. Didn’t go to the Rally on Saturday. As I was getting dressed to go, I noticed Max having some trouble standing on all fours – his back legs were all wobbly and shaky. His tail was tucked under his butt again and he was acting just strangely enough that it caught my attention. And forced me to think about all the myriad bad things that could happen to him if I left to go off and stand with a bizillion people in DC.
If I were one to think this sort of thing (wink), I’d almost say that Max decided to get wonky just to save me from 20 million people crowded onto the mall in DC for the “Rally to Restore Sanity”. But having looked forward to this for over a month now, I was sad that I had to choose between my dog acting weirdly and going to mill about in the sanity.
I chose the dog. Who, by the way, was fine not 60 minutes after we made the decision to stay our ass home. Which makes me think that other forces were at work. Or, it was just a strange coincidence. (hahahah)
While I would have loved to have been a part of it all, this little introvert would have gotten so overwhelmed by the crowds (just at the damn metro stop, not to mention at the actual event) that it probably wouldn’t have worth it. I was glad to have had a front row seat – on my couch in front of the big screen HDTV and goofing off on twitter with a bunch of others. That’s definitely more my speed.
Or is that one’s self? I don’t know. I care a little but not enough to check it out, you know?
Thanks Gal for the comment that I am a bit hard on myself. I can be, yes. More often, though, I am inclined to slack and let things just float away. That’s probably why I am so hard on myself when the time comes because I’ve gotten away with things for a long time. (That makes no sense to anyone but me, I know.)
Had a nice consultation with a medical intuitive by the name of Christopher Stewart. In case you want to know more, here’s a great page on what, exactly, a medical intuitive does. I contacted him after a referral from my coach because I was worried about something my body was doing. See, during the hub-bub of Duty’s illness, I started spotting very lightly. This is not a good sign if you’ve been in menopause as I’ve been for over six years. It’s especially worrying when one’s mother had uterine cancer that she chose to ignore until it metastasized into a breast tumor. (yes, me again)
My coach told me an interesting factoid: when one’s spouse/partner/significant other has major illnesses, it often affects the other (well) partner in their reproductive organs. Hence, the spotting.
Before anyone starts spazzing out – yes, I went to my family doc who agreed that while it’s most likely nothing to worry about, best to go see an OB/GYN to be sure. So, yes, I’ll be doing all the medical stuff in tandem with the info I got from Christopher. Continue reading »
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(I love this. Duty says “You love everything.” and he’s right. I do. Everything. Even Dick Cheney. —> okay, not everything.)
Did I tell you that the Angels told me to let Duty pick my manifesting word for this month? Feh. He chose “Follow-through”. (Stabs him) And they also told me to allow him to chose one of the actions to embody that vibration. (Stabs Angels) He chose this: I have a desktop computer that I haven’t touched since 2005. (no lie) It has many, many of Lauren’s emails on it from back before I used Gmail. I really want to keep those but that entails firing it up and doing some serious saving. This is (one of) my task(s) for the month.
My mantra: “I finish what I start.” (note to self: start nothing and you’ll be home free! hah)
(sigh)
So, yeah. Have I started it? Nope. Does he remind me of it often? Yep. (stabs self)
Lots of stabby action going on. What’s that about?
Happy Monday, (three) peeps! Believe it or not, I got in the pool TWICE this weekend! Neighbor Greg had rigged up some concoction where he recycles the water through a hose that is heated by the sun and runs it back into the pool. Bottom line: 85 degrees = me in the pool! I was in there for just a little while on Saturday but did about a half hour of floaties on Sunday while listening to the neighbor dude’s lawn mower. (Although loud sounds generally bother me, stuff like that doesn’t at all. In fact, I rather like it.) It was most luffly. Duty was sidelined all weekend with a headcold of some sort so I was mostly on my own.
So, check it: my buddy Kara at Conduit of Joy wrote the sweetest post about me and my mad intuitive skillz. That tickled me all to pieces. As I wrote in a comment under the post at her blog, from the moment we talked that first time, I knew we’d be fast friends. We speak the same language of the Woo but are also mental as well (not THAT kind of mental, kids!) – loving the research end of things and learning and whatnot. I just love her. (Can you tell?)
Not only that happy news but the nice young man I’ve been practice coaching (for free) over the past few months has asked to continue our coaching relationship as a paid service. YEY! He’s my first official coaching client. What’s funny is that he found me on a “totally unrelated to the woo-woo” board (AskMeFi) and he really didn’t know all the ins and outs of where, exactly, my intuitive skills come from. It’s been a growing experience for us both and when he raised the idea of continuing for a fee, I did a small dance around the room. heheh (Shhh! Don’t tell anyone, K?)
So, things are picking up and I will tell you (transparency and whatnot) that I am thisclose to making my manifesting goal for June ($450) raised ONLY through fees from PI stuff. (Word for the month: integration) – I am so not kidding, peeps. This manifesting thing WORKS if you do the steps. I swear. Each month I am raising the amount just by a bit and it appears. Out of thin air. I don’t even really wonder how – it just does.
Since I promised a newsletter in July, I suppose I should get working on that, eh? (Has a small spazz out but regains composure quickly. Sorta.)
GO UNIVERSE! Woot Woot!!
I got a couple last minute requests and the amounts were over and above the suggested donation and that put me right up close to the goal of $400. As I was telling Duty about it, he said he meant to tell me earlier that he’d like me to do a reading for a friend of his and he’d kick in the last $20!!
YEY!!! I’m happy that I did it, that so many people wanted readings and that the manifesting piece of it worked out perfectly even though, as noted, I lost a bit of steam last week. Apparently, the Universe decided I needed a boost and jumped right in. Gotta love it!
So, a big thank you to my fans Jody and The Gal for helping carry me through this (dissonance and all) and for being so supportive of my work. Thanks, too, to my friend Jen-Jen for being one of my good cheerleaders on Facebook! :)
What have we learned? We learned that we can get through dissonance, we can come out from behind our curtain and CLAIM who we are (why am I talking in the third person?) and we are ever so much more sure that this is truly our soul work. I’d say that’s a good thing, yes?
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