1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
I fasted for twelve days in January and it was amazingly easy. Which just goes to show that when I set my mind to achieving something, I can do it. It’s the mind-setting that is the hard part for me. I tried it again in February and really half-assed it and blew it seven days in.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I’m not sure I made any other than the fasting and I did keep that one. I always make one or two of them so I’ll come up with something, I’m sure.
3. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?
Goofing around online, most likely. I don’t have any plans because I like to stay alive and drunken asshats make that hard.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
My oldest aunt passed away in June. My other two aunts and I flew to Indiana for her funeral and it was a lovely remembrance of her life.
5. What countries did you visit?
Is Colorado a country? (hah Is it?) Didn’t go out of the US this year but did go to Oklahoma, Indiana and Colorado.
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Discipline, David Cook singing to me and only me (preferably naked (him, not me)), some Christmas spirit, 40 hours a week and the paycheck that goes along with it and a thriving woo-woo practice.
7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 3, 2009 - my first DC concert where I was smooshed up against the stage, so close that had I brought out my inner perve, I could have had a field day touching him. I sang so hard and so loud that I had no voice for three days after but damn, it was worth it. One of the best days of my life.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
As mentioned, my 12 day fast. I don’t think I’ve ever felt that good in my body. Strong, clear … just awesome. I also walked a 5k in May with a bunch of other DC fans. That was something I hadn’t planned on but was glad I did.
9. What was your biggest failure?
When I fell off my wagon (fasting) and realized it was more fun to just binge eat, I totally went for it and gained back all the weight I lost plus. I finish the year feeling like Pudge McGee and am really, heartbreakingly unhappy about it all.
That, and I didn’t bring out my inner perve and cop a feel off DC. (It was the closest I’d get to him all year and if I had known that, I might have.)
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Fortunately, despite my snarfing, I have a very healthy immune system. My body is in good shape besides there being too much of it.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
New bras that showed off my awesome ta-ta’s to their best advantage. It was great.
12. Where did most of your money go?
For a while there, on new bras! hah (Damn, good ones are expensive!) Then it went to paying bills.
13. What song will always remind you of 2009?
It’s not one you’d know – it’s “Make Me” by MWK (a band Dave played with a bit before Idol.) MWK co-founders Neal & Andy are in his band now and they bust this song out every once in a while. I think it’s the most played song on my Itunes list. Love the line “Make me fall for you // as if I had nothing else to do” – (I secretly think Neal is a poser but he does write some kick ass lyrics.)
14. What do you wish you’d done more of?
I’m so sorry but I cannot divulge this as it’s classified information. Your life would be in danger and I would hate to put you in that position. Definitely shared on a need-to-know basis and only one person would need to know that and that person is well aware of it. (At least I think they are!)
15. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Cryptic answers like the one above. Well, YOU wish I’d done less of it, right? LOL
For reals, I wish I had not run amok with food.
16. What was your favourite TV program?
This year I was totally into “Mad Men” and “Dexter” along with staples like “Intervention”. Cousin O’Cool has recommended “True Blood” and I’m starting that series as soon as Netflix gets its ass in gear. She said Season 2 was pretty close to porn and I’m all about the porn (vampire or not).
17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I really don’t hate anyone. There are a few I prefer not to spend time with but I don’t hate anyone. (Dick Cheney, if I had to name names but I’ve “hated” him all along so that’s nothing new. Man is pure evil, in my opinion.)
18. What was the best book you read?
I did tear through the “Twilight” saga this year and while I can’t say they were well written, they were decent enough to pull me though four books the size of bricks. I enjoyed the ride. Just don’t name your damn baby Renesmee.
19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Awww, you know the answer to that one! I also took a liking to Matt Nathanson after seeing him open for Cookie. He was awesome in concert. Funny and sexy and just cool.
20. What was your favorite film of this year?
I don’t see many movies in the theatre so it’s hard to say. I enjoyed “Julie and Julia” and am looking forward to seeing “Up in the air” (despite my strong aversion to anything with smarmy George Clooney in it) and “Blindsided”. Oh wait, I watched “The Proposal” and really, really enjoyed it.
21. What did you do on your birthday?
Some fam and I went to Buca diBeppo’s in Washington right before my birthday and that was a nice celebration.
22. What kept you sane?
Visits to Cooklandia, the internets, and most especially, Cousin O’Cool who, despite being 18 years younger than me, is like the big sister I never had. She’s awesome – funny, smart, really snarky and very grounded. I love her lots.
23. Who did you miss?
Always miss my Lauren. Not one day … seriously, not. one. day. goes by when I don’t think of her. I also missed my mom and grandma.
24. Who was the best new person you met?
My friend Areti whom I met at the Pathways Expo in October. I hope we get to be good buddies in 2010.
25. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
To really, truly effect change, I have to shift stuff in the physical world – it’s not enough to just think about it or ponder it. I have to actually take steps to move into it.
Oh, and touch David Cook while you can because you might not get another chance. heh
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The “Sometimes” Meme: All you have to do is finish the sentence…
Sometimes I just need: to be left alone.
Sometimes I want: to be desired.
Sometimes I like to: play mind-numbing games and veg.
Sometimes all it takes: is for someone to let me know they get me.
Sometimes I picture: my own healing practice.
Sometimes I wish: I had made some different choices in my life, in particular, one when I was 25.
Sometimes I find: people just want to hear themselves talk.
Sometimes I take: a step back and ponder what’s before me.
Sometimes I look: like Sideshow Bob in the morning (damn this curly hair!)
Sometimes I hate: that things are so terribly divisive in this country.
Sometimes it’s nice: to have SophiaKitty sitting on my tummy, purring away.
Sometimes it hurts: when I walk up the steps. It’s that weird pain in my right butt cheek that comes out now and again.
Sometimes it makes me happy: to go to stores, walk around and just touch stuff. That’s almost better than buying all that stuff anymore.
Sometimes it’s sad: that I am such a physical slug in my own body which is so strong and healthy. There are many who don’t have that and I should show my thankfulness by taking better care of it.
Sometimes I listen: to my Angels. In fact, most times I listen to them. They tend to be quite vocal.
Sometimes I sleep: poorly. It’s not often but it’s still not fun when it happens.
Sometimes I like to watch: my cats learn to interact with each other in a civil manner.
Sometimes I feel: completely unknown. No one knows all my pieces. My friend Charlie is probably the only person on this earth that knows most of the pieces and he loves me just the same. Still, I long for someone to know me fully. I don’t know if that will happen. It’s too scary.
Sometimes I rant: right here on these very pages and bore you all (3) into silence.
Sometimes I never: feel like doing house chores. But I still do them, if only sporadically.
Sometimes I really: am tired of all the STUFF in my house and want to hire a professional organizer to come re-do all of it.
… and you’re still standing.
I was so annoyed at work today, I can’t even begin to tell you. I swear I am turning into an ogre there. First off, here’s the deal. Everyone and their brother brought in the leftover Halloween candy for the community (and client) candy bowl which is kept right outside my area. I’ve been refilling it each morning with a nice selection of what’s available. Most people rummage through and find something they like. However, one of my co-workers decided that she needed to look in the BIG BAG and see if there was anything she liked better. The BIG BAG is in the file cabinet in my secured area. Well, alright. Whatever. The thing that really pissed me off was that she decided that I needed to get her the bag right as I’m in the middle of five things. Could you fucking wait three seconds and/or be less greedy about your candy snarfing? (I know. This is the rant of a five year old.) Admittedly, I did not hide my annoyance well and for that I’m (sorta) sorry. Jeeez.
See?  This is my work space – open to the public. That ledge right there? That’s where clients come in and hang right over and watch me work as they are waiting for their broker.  I hate that.
Now that you have a picture in your head, I’ll continue.
So, one of the brokers chose to have a LONG and drawn out conversation with some dude by the elevator which (in)conveniently is right next to my desk. Phones are ringing, people are begging for the BIG BAG ‘O candy and I have to hear the entire conversation. I felt like I had walked into a very boring Yahoo chat room.
I’d be a much more productive employee if I had my own office somewhere and didn’t have to deal with all these distractions. Heaven knows I have enough of my own (good) distractions that I don’t need everyone else’s too. Is it rude to send an email asking people to have their little conversations off in a corner somewhere far from my desk area? I know. I know. GRRR.
/whining (for now)
*Yes, they are DC lyrics so just shut up.
Sunday Stealing: The ABC’s of Meme
A- Advocate for: Peace. Or cookies. I think the world would be better off with a large helping of both.
B- Best Feature: My mind. (also, boobies. I mention them a lot because they just don’t get enough attention. heh)
C- Could do without: All this rain. I love rain but this is more than enough for me.
D- Dreams and desires: I haz dem and I’m not sharing. Oh okay. Since you asked – I dream of leaving my dumbass job in the financial services field and having my own practice as a coach and mentor to others who truly want to make profound changes in their lives and are ready to do the work. Also, I want to be tall and thin and be the secret object of one David Cook’s lustful fantasies.
E- Essential items: Laptop, coffee, journal
F- Favorite pasttime: Farting around – I have perfected it over many years
G- Good at: see above. Also, writing. (Believe it or not, I can form full sentences. Or can I?)
H- Have never tried: Smoking – never will. Bleah.
I- If I had a million dollars: I’d pay off all debts, set my three aunts up for life and go on a six month tour of Italy.
J- Junkie for: Are you familiar with the name David Cook? I thought so.
K- Kindred spirit: Gotta say, my Goddaughter of Love will always hold that crown. But she had the amazing ability to be that for ANYONE she encountered. She just “got” people on their own level and made them feel loved and understood. What a wonderful gift.
L- Little known fact: I cannot touch pictures of snakes in books. They give me the heebee-jeebes.
M- Memorable moment: Standing so close to (not-so-sekrit) boyfriend that I could touch him (but realizing that would be inappropriate not to mention all kinds of cougary).
N- Never again will I: have four cats, two guinea pigs and a dog. Good lord, that was a total menagerie.
O- Occasional indulgence: Hmmm, occasional? Having a whole Cin-a-bon. I have one maybe once a year and try not to feel guilty doing so.
P- Profession: Financial services operations – in various forms.
Q- Quote: “Take a minute just to breathe and think of everything you wanted and what you got instead.”
R- Reason to smile: Birthday cake!
S- Sorry about: being a slug my whole life all weekend
T- Things you are worrying about right now: Cashflow issues. Where did all these bills come from?
U- Uninterested in: Stupid shit about Hollywood people. Jon, Kate, Anna Nicole … blah blah fucking blah.
V- Very scared of: Gaining back all my weight from surgery twelve years ago. Will. not. happen.
W- Worst habits: Eating from boredom. And not exercising at all.
Y- Yummiest dessert: Bread pudding with vanilla ice cream
X- X marks my ideal vacation spot: A beachy place with lots of quiet, ocean, books and adult beverages.
Z- Zodiac sign: Libra (but the very last degree of it before it turns Scorpio) so while I have a big dose of being all about the balance, I am a very “behind-the-scenes” kind of chick (Scorpio influence).
** Please to forgive current affectation of “Also, (whatever).” – Over at Balloon Juice it’s used to make fun of Sarah Palin’s odd speechifying. I’ve noticed that it has made its way here as well and wanted to let you all in on the joke lest you think I suck at writing. heh
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Stolen from The Gal who stole it from Kwiz:
1. What is the color of your toothbrush? I think it’s pink and white. I need a new one. I especially love electric toothbrushes but I’m a spaz with a water pik. Water everywhere except the one place it’s supposed to be.
2. Name one person who made you smile today Duty – I was home sick in bed all day and he brought up some meatloaf and mashed potatoes for dinner.
3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? Deciding to call in sick to work – I slept the whole day, just about.
4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Listening to Randi Rhodes podcast and playing a dumbass game on Facebook
5. What is your favorite candy bar? I loves me some Snickers. MMMM.
6. Have you ever been to a strip club? Oh my, yes I have. Back in my early 20′s, I often went to strip clubs with my friends. My favorite dancer was a mocha colored guy nicknamed “Good & Plenty Denny” and he was my favorite mostly because he danced to Prince songs.
7. What is the last thing you said aloud? I chatted with Miss LucieCat about how she was feeling.
8. What is your favorite ice cream? Jamocha almond fudge
9. What was the last thing you had to drink? coffee, of course
10. Do you like your wallet? That’s an odd question but yes, I like it. It’s small, really only holds debit/credit cards and a couple little things tucked inside. I always know where to find it.
11. What was the last thing you ate? Chilled grapes (I wish it were jamocha ice cream, though!)
12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? Not this week, no. I’m trying to stay on a budget of sorts plus I’m feeling like a heifer and refuse to subject myself to a dressing room mirror.
13. The last sporting event you watched? Caps/Flyers hockey game
14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? buttery and salty (Kwiz’s answer and I concur!)
15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to? I don’t text much but yesterday I had fun IMing with one of my most favorite people.
16. Ever go camping? Girl scout camp and latrines that were merely holes in the ground put me off camping forever
17. Do you take vitamins daily? No, but I take a buttload of supplements and my naturopath said I didn’t need a multi-vitamin with what I’m taking.
18. Do you go to church every Sunday? I don’t consider organized religion part of my path so no, I don’t attend any church. (Re-reading that, I thought it sounded really pretentious. I don’t mean it to sound that way. I’m just not a fan of religion in a box, you know?)
19. Do you have a tan? Nah, but my feet get it from when I run around outside in my strappy sketchers. It’s a lovely look, I assure you.
20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? Nope – pizza will always win that. Now, ask me to decide between pizza and pad thai and watch me go into hyper-dither mode.
21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? Not usually. But I do love those bendy straws so if I had one of those, I might.
22. What did your last text message say? In IM, I told them to watch out that their dangly bits don’t hang out when they go to the gym. (I’m a fascinating conversationalist, am I not?)
23. What are you doing tomorrow? Returning to work
24. Favorite color? look around this here blog and I think you’ll be able to tell that pretty easily. (psst: blue)
25. Look to your left; what do you see? Max de dogg laying on the floor
26. What color is your watch? Kwiz said: invisible colored and it made me laugh. I thought mine was the only invisible colored watch out there!
27. What do you think of when you hear “Australia� Russell Crowe so I think about something else
28. Would you strip for money? Well, I’d have to say that the money would be ME paying someone to watch because that’s just not very attractive.
29.Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Mostly drive through because I don’t like all the noise and confusion inside fast food places.
30. What is your favorite number? Like Kwiz, I said 3. I had to laugh when it turned out to be my life path number as well. But I wasn’t surprised.
31. Who’s the last person you talked to on the phone? Duty to apprise him of my staying home
32. Any plans today? My plan today was to sleep a lot and I’m happy to say I feel accomplished (and rested).
33. In how many states have you lived? 2 – MD and VA – I really don’t get around much.
34. Biggest annoyance right now? I’m really warm so could be running a fever.
35. Last song listened to? “Make Me” by MWK
36. Can you say the alphabet backwards? Actually, I can. On the nights when I had insomnia, I used to practice it. I bet I could say it backwards even if I were inebriated. I shall test that theory next time I imbibe.
37. Do you have a maid service clean your house? If I do, that person is doing a shitty job and will need to be replaced.
38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? my sneakers although I would catch hell from Stacey and Clinton for that.
39. Are you jealous of anyone? I am envious (rather than jealous) of those who do not have weight problems. I can only imagine a day spent not worrying about what I eat. Well, I have those days but they are not without consequences.
40. Is anyone jealous of you? I doubt it but it’s possible. I have a nice life with unlimited time to myself, no kids to worry about or send through college and do pretty much what I want. There are probably some who would trade with me in a heartbeat.
41. Do you love anyone? Yes, many people in many kinds of ways. I will say that I will never, ever love anyone as fully and without condition as I did Lauren. And I am thankful every day to have experienced that kind of love in my life.
42. Do any of your friends have children? Yep, several do and are kind enough to share them with me when I need a baby-holding fix.
43. What do you usually do during the day? Pretend that I care about stuff in the financial services field.
44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now? There are many I dislike (looking at you Rush, Hannity, et al) but I don’t hate them. It takes a lot of energy to do that and I’d rather put that energy toward something nicer.
45. Do you use the word ‘hello’ daily? Yep, although I say “Chello” instead because it sounds british and I like that.
46. What color is your car? The liberal’s handbook dictated that I get a Prius but I got to choose the color. Surprise! Blue.
47. What size wedding ring do you wear? I dunno. It was a while ago.
48. Are you thinking about someone right now? Wondering whether SophiaCat is up or downstairs. Does that count?
49. Have you ever been to Six Flags? No, but I have been to Hershey Park and Busch Gardens.
50. How did you get your worst scar? Surgery in 1997. But the one I got all on my own was when I fell off my bike. I was about 8 and had just sort of learned how to ride a bike but that didn’t keep me from imitating my friend who could ride it without holding onto the bars. Yeah. Kids, don’t do that. I bonked right into a curb while trying to round a corner and mashed my whole mouthful of teeth. I remember standing up, seeing blood, thinking to myself (and yes, this was exactly my train of thought): “Someone here is bleeding. YOU are the only one here. It must be YOU!” aaaah! Then I ran screaming and crying to my Grandmother’s house around the corner. Many stitches and messed up teeth followed. Fun! The scar on my lip is invisible but the teeth never recovered. I should have gotten those damn braces.
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Things to which I say Phbbbbbbt!:
1. Going in early to work – takes away from my all important goof-off time in the morning. Yes, I know. It’s just for a couple days until the resident hypochondriac comes back to work. Still. Phbbbbt!
2. Fighting on social networking sites: Kids, don’t do this. Seriously. While it’s great fun to watch from afar, my enjoyment of it means I have to take the bus to hell and that might be frowned upon at the Seminary. Help me help you. And save what’s left of my (im)mortal soul.
3. Hotdogs for dinner – because I’m over sketti. And not even on-the-grill hotdogs but boiled-in-water hotdogs. Isn’t that sad?
4. Michael Jackson’s death – what a spectacle. I am so sick of hearing about it and trust me, I am studiously avoiding any television news (that’s nothing new but still). It is inescapable. Geeeez.
But no Phbbts to Jody for her sweet and concerned comments – girlfriend, I am always angsty about some-thing. It’s just part of who I am. And I do often “take a minute just to breathe …” but those are not very exciting to write about on this here blog.
And no Phbbts to The Gal because she understands my random and mysterious baby lust in her heart. Mostly now I am content to hold babies and then give them back to their owners and go read a book. I did, however, ask my darling 8 year old neighbor “Miss Emma” for a hug today and she came and sat in my lap and we loved on each other. It was most awesome and just what was needed.
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So yeah. Tired. Really, really tired. But feeling good despite it. Sunday was such a looooong day with traveling and stuff and then it was right back into the fray at work on Monday. Two others are out so there’s a bit of finagling going on with workloads and I’m trying to catch up on other stuff from last week. Did I not tell you I needed another vacation? This very morning, in fact, I poured a big cup of dog food right into the water bowl. Welcome to “I’m not really present” theatre. Jeepers.
In other news, what’s all the hub-bub about Jon and Kate and their EIGHT kids?? I don’t even watch the show, mostly just peruse headlines and even I can tell you what’s going on. Who are these people and why do I need to know about their life? Further, I don’t give one rat’s ass about Perez Hilton and his Twitter tussle with … someone. (Truth be told, I think he is rather vile and the more attention he gets, the more he wants and the crazier things he does to get it.) Power and attention are scary ass things and once you get them, it’s hard to let go of it. Not that I have any of either one on a grand scale, of course. But I understand the concept.
Does anyone remember the song “Miracles” by Jefferson Starship? I love, love, love that song. Always have. Cousin O’Flair and I played that song over and over and OVER until the Godmommy of Love told us she would fling it out the window if we didn’t turn it off. (heh) I just downloaded it from Itunes.
I might have to move heaven and earth to prove
It to you, baby
So we’re makin love
and you feel the power
And I feel the power
Then there’s really nothing that we can’t do
If we wanted to, baby
We could exist on the stars
It’d be so easy
Yeah, it’d be so easy, right?
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