I know that I need to let go, or I am going to get dragged. Letting go is definitely not my strong suit. Neither is forgiveness. In fact, they’re the two things I’m worst at. Why couldn’t God’s answer be, “Why don’t you obsess endlessly about this? Then try to control this situation into a fare-thee-well, and be sure not to breathe at all, and try to manipulate everyone into doing things your way; and then stomp away and brood for awhile and then eat a big bag of Hershey’s Kisses?”
And this section speaks to what I am trying to do each day:
I know that most of the time, for me, the only real problem is, that left to my own devices, I am on my own mind almost all the time. But we’re not left to our own devices. People help us, and we help them. Some days I just try to give glasses of water to everyone. Maybe that means having patience with the children in my church school, or flirting with old people at the health-food store, or offering chocolate bar communion to the people in line at the DMV who don’t have appointments because they’re the most seriously afflicted of all God’s creatures. One last thing I know for sure is that God always comforts the disturbed, and disturbs the comfortable.
And speaking of the disturbed, did anyone catch tonight’s ep of American Idol 2? Geez oh Pete. Surely someone has to help these poor deluded souls who think they can sing. Don’t they have mothers?? I KNOW I can’t sing one note and you don’t won’t see my ass up there on stage, looking to be eviscerated by Simon, Randy and the oh so polite Paula. Nuh uh. Yet, there they stand. It was truly like an accident that you can’t help watching as you roll by in your car. I don’t usually watch that show but this was sort of a walk through the trials and stuff with commentary and I dig that so I switched back and forth between that and Survivor (good season so far with the Mars vs. Venus scenario going on).
HEY! Six Feet Under starts on Sunday and I am so psyched! Brenda doesn’t show ’til Ep 5 (ARF!) but I am sure it’s going to be great this season anyway. I love that show!!
TGIF tomorrow … first week in ACAT-land was most pleasant, I must say!