I wanna be sedated

I Wanna Be Sedated
– the Ramones

Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go
I wanna be sedated
Nothing to do
Nowhere to go
I Wanna be sedated
Just get me to the airport
And put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can’t control my fingers
I can’t control my brain
Oh no oh no
Just put me in a wheelchair
And get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry before I go loco
I can’t control my fingers
I can’t control my toes
Oh no oh no

I was sitting outside in the sun doing a big head dump on paper and all signs point to my immediate desire to be sedated. Not sure how and really exactly WHAT this sedation should be but it’s clearly called for. You should see how much stuff I dumped onto that piece of paper. Every single thing that was rolling around in my head and sometimes I put stuff on twice because it was just that noisy!

I am beginning to wonder if I shall spend eternity in “Can’t Win Theatre” … seems so. No matter what I have I want it to be more, less, different, whatever. Just whatever it is not. Is that a human condition? Or a Lisa condition? And if it is a Lisa condition, how did it get to be that way? And further, how can I change the scenario so that I am welcoming that which comes into my life without wanting to change it to fit whatever nebulous desire I have at that moment? (Whew – the mother of all run-on sentences!).

Sloggy is the mood word for the moment. I’ve stopped the pain meds the dentist prescribed me when I gave up the wisdom last week because I think that is doing something funky with my moods and I’m not liking it. One day I feel good and energetic and the next I am slogging along, just wanting to run away. I so hope that is not the ditch calling me because I will not go! FEH to you, black ditch of depression! I shall not go quietly again! (oh, how damn dramatic! – smacks self on head)

I think once HRM comes back and asserts her territoriality again (ie: pees all over her office and everything she comes in contact with), I am going to take time off. I have 3 1/2 weeks vacation and almost 2 weeks sick time … I don’t think I will go anywhere (we are hoping to revisit Islamorada in November) but the key point is to just NOT BE HERE.

Bush Declares End to Saddam’s Old Regime

(I saw this and thought “Oh yeah. That means something that Bushie has declared it to be so” – Fuckhead.)

WASHINGTON (AP) – President Bush on Wednesday hailed the deaths of Saddam Hussein’s two sons as the clearest sign yet that “the former regime is gone and will not be coming back.” (Oh, get over yourself Bushie)

Yet in a Rose Garden (emphasis mine – LM) appearance, Bush said that attacks from remaining holdouts continue to complicate the task of U.S.-led coalition forces. He appealed for more international military and financial support for postwar Iraq.

Even as the White House celebrated the deaths of Odai and Qusai Hussein, questions continued to dog the administration over the president’s use of discredited intelligence to bolster his case for war with Iraq. (as well they should …)