Ah … let’s have some question and answer time, shall we?
What was your biggest success in 2004?
Oh, there were many “successes” I think. But the biggest one, to my mind, is that I have found (for lack of a better word) the discipline to put my words into actions. That was my theme for this year, btw – “Words into Action” – and I think I was most successful at doing that.
Regarding that success, whom do you need to thank?
I thank myself! :) I learned how to ask for help, where to look for it and how to be centered enough to put the guidance I get into action. So, thanks, self!!
What was your biggest failure in 2004?
Hmm, biggest failure? Hard to say. Leaving to go to new place of employ? I don’t really think of it as a failure, persay. I know there were reasons I was sent there. I guess I would have to say that it was, overall, a time I don’t wish to repeat. I was sad, lonely, feeling inadequate, feeling constricted, missed my friends, missed IMing my friends and missed wearing playclothes. So, not really a failure. Just a pooty time I wish I didn’t have to go through in order to learn a lesson.
Regarding that failure, whom do you need to forgive?
Myself. I learned that I need to ask for help or else find myself in a HUGE ditch looking the fool. But I knew in my heart of hearts that I worked MUCH better in a very informal environment without a lot of interference from “big brother” – that’s why I didn’t take the job early this year with the other advisor. I knew I wouldn’t be happy there. I didn’t get any vibes like that with this job and I truly wish I had. That’s okay. Self? You are forgiven. (Let bygones be beeegones!)
Probably one of the biggest lessons I was taught this year (by a myriad of teachers and situations) was that “it is by will alone that I set my mind in motion”.
What was the most fun you had in 2004?
Hmmm, the most fun? It’s not been an overly fun year, I gotta say. Though, depending on your definition, fun can be found in all kinds of places: in a closet, a woo-woo room, driving in my S2000 convertible with the top down and Madonna blaring “Holiday” (I’m a product of the 80s – whaddya want?), drinking gingerbread lattes, writing secret notes to your cousin in the backseat of the car … fun can be found, oh yes it can.
When were you most brilliant?
Puhlease! I am always brilliant! (although I do excel in the woo-woo area, I must say)
What do you want to accomplish in 2005?
A couple things: move into the perfect house just for us (4 bedrooms, 2 1/2 baths, near-ish water, fenced in backyard for de dogg) and begin to practice the stuff I’m learning in the spiritual arena. To really live and breathe being a healer of some sort, and keep myself balanced and a clear channel for energies to flow through me to others is what I want most of all.
Whom do you want to be closer to in 2005?
I cannot give away all my secrets, can I? :) They know who they B.
What do you want to stop doing in 2005?
Quit eating so damn many treats, girlfriend! The time is NOW to get it through your thick head that you reap what you sow (is that the right spelling?), because if, in fact, that is true – then I’m gonna be reaping lots of trouble when it comes to my later years. I don’t smoke, don’t take drugs (illegal ones, anyway and does absinth count at all?) and don’t drink much. But I do like the treats, oh yes I do but I need to work on curbing that more and eating more healthfully.
What do you want to start?
My spiritual healing practice so I can work on transitioning into that rather than answering doltish questions about where your damn 4 cents is in your account.
At the end of 2005, what do you want to have been your biggest success?
To move into a house that’s right for us and to have a spiritual practice.
HYN to all my pals – I send a big kiss in y’alls direction! And here’s wishing 2005 sees better things for us personally and for our world. :D