This one was tough, kids. I won’t lie. But it’s from the heart, so there’s that.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
There was a time in my life many years ago where I was very confused and made some decisions borne of enormous sadness. Some horrendous, some merely crappy. All in search of what I thought I needed. When really, what I needed was inside me all the time. Not somewhere out there.
Now, looking back at that time, I have a great deal of compassion for my then-self. I was so lost, so sad. But I found my way out and learned a lot in the process. So, I forgive myself for making decisions from a place of perceived emptiness. It took me years to understand that the answers were right here in front of me. (Yes, just call me Dorothy, won’t you? Or even Toto. I won’t mind.)
What can you forgive yourself for?
Tough one because it involves self-disclousure…Have to forgive my self for making decisions that were self-destructive when I was younger. Although we all know when we are doing things that are wrong, we find ways to blame others ("it's the way I was raised", "it's because he said it was"…). The hurt that was caused and the breaking of trust were so hard to get beyond and still creep into my heart every now and then. Poor choices.
Oh, my, Snarks. The feelings you invoke here are so intensely, personally yours and so universal, too. Important stuff. Thanks for sharing.
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