Monday I heard the resolution of the issue with my young “mentor”/co-worker – they are moving him to a different branch where they can give him lots of attention and he’ll be working with brokers that are much (MUCH) less demanding. I’m really glad for him. It’s a sucky place to be – working as hard as your little brain will allow and still not making the grade. And I’m so thankful I work for a company that values employees enough to find a workable solution for all concerned.
That leaves yours truly back at the most sucktastic square one – taking the broker back full-time until at least March. When it dawned on me that this was really going to happen, I went into the bathroom and cried. This was so not the way I had planned things to go and yet, here I am.
I can truly sympathize with my young co-worker because it’s been a hella learning curve for me, too. Things have changed enormously in the financial services industry and the job of a client associate nowadays is very, very different than back when I was doing that work full-time. It’s harder now, things are much more complex and the responsibility (especially in the role for this particular broker) is daunting.
My head is fried now, every single day, from trying to juggle the eighty things on my plate and attending to the ten other “HIGH PRIORITY” things that BrokerBoy dumps in my lap. Not only that, but I am trying to do my regular job (the one I’m paid to do, mind you) and doing it mostly “catch as catch can” and often get behind. Yesterday, mail didn’t come until 3pm and this was mail from Saturday, Monday and Tuesday. We got a buttload of checks in – and I struggled to get them booked into accounts and copied before I had to leave. Fail. BrokerBoy had an issue with an $18million dollar wire coming in so I had to drop everything and take care of that.
I’m so overwhelmed, I’ve lost all creativity for PI and am doing the very minimum to be able to keep it afloat but am falling short there too.
What am I doing to manage it? Well, I plan to sit down with my manager and BrokerBoy and tell them what I can handle. The rest? Up to manager to get it taken care of for the broker. I have to figure out my boundaries, not try to be “the mommy who will fix everything” and stop killing myself over this situation.
I don’t know what happened to that nice, cushy job I had prior to April but it’s gone, baby, gone and it ain’t coming back. We’ve added two new people in the past month, another broker (without an assistant) is coming over soon (and we have no place to put him) – I don’t know what they think they’re going to do there but it’s a big fucking mess anymore. I really, truly cannot wait to be out of there.
I haz a sad.