So, finished my first week as a self-employed individual. Here’s all I experienced:
* fear – making my first “enrollment call” asking someone to join my Intuitive Development Mastery Program. Following a script of sorts was hard. Learning how to sell isn’t quite my forte. Still, I did it and she said YES!
* joy – she said YES! Dances around the room
*sadness– she sent an email saying she couldn’t afford it after all. I was bummed out but know that’s what happens and kept on moving.
* annoyance – venture out of house to work at Dunkin’ Donuts. Clearly it’s the gathering place for old farts who are discussing politics from a point of view with which I do not agree. (I live in the only red district in MD.) Rein in desire to scream at them and put earphones in. They disperse eventually but I realize this will not be a place for me to work once in a while. At least not in the morning.
* loneliness – had a weird dream about Duty admitting he was in love with Robert Ohotto (because I fell back asleep listening to an Ohotto meditation) and it made me sad. I wandered around the house all day feeling out of sorts and so very lonely.
* elation – did a webtv program Wednesday night and bathed in the light of the Woo. Despite being profoundly uncomfortable on camera for one whole hour, I just sunk into what I know best and ran with it. It was great and I got lots of good comments on it. The engineer running the program was shocked that I hadn’t done anything like this before because I was “a natural” at it. Host wants me to come back again.
* tempered joy – another enrollment call for program. She says YES!
* untempered joy – money comes into PayPal account for her enrollment. Dance around room and go buy bicycle I desperately wanted with gift money from work colleagues.
* confusion – Duty not happy at all about bike even though I just had the equivalent of a month’s salary from old job deposited in bank account. Tries to steal my joy. I refuse. I know this is hard for him. I get it. And I get that part of my work is to stand my ground. I just wish he’d participate in the joy. He is who he is.
* more joy of the untempered kind – another client signs on to my program!
In one week out from being laid off, I’ve made the equivalent of two month’s salary at old job.
I think I’ve done well. Have more enrollment calls coming this week. Also too: rode my bike yesterday morning just to test it out. Wheee! It’s like Goldilocks – it fits me “just right”.
So, not bad for a first week, eh?