There’s someone in my mentoring group who is a beast (in the very best way) about turning out E-books and programs like it’s going out of style! (And it’s not crap stuff either, it’s really good quality information and layout) and I am in awe of her. And I haz a big-ass jellus.
Here I sit with notes to type up for a teaching call Monday, copy to write ASAP for the intuition bootcamp we’re rocking in August and trying to do eleventy appointments all jammed into one day. I. just. cannot. with. the. overwhelm.
This is so not me right now, dammit.
Sometimes, my internal process is SLOW and it goes into a snail’s pace when I get into overwhelm. And the more I see what others churn out, the more I recede into the closet.
So, trying to take it one step at a time, as in: what is the most important thing to do today?
For me, that’s preparing content for Monday’s call. I love this group and all the women in it. They are energetic, supportive and so willing to open up and share. I’ve learned a lot from guiding them into that work.
I’ve also learned some of the limits of my time. For example, I offered each person (all 9) 3 one-hour calls with me over the course of three months. When I bring the official Level One course out in the fall, each person will have just one call with me because while I really love doing these calls, I am running out of time for the other content that needs to be written and follow up work with each one. If the hallmark of the course is my hands-on mentoring, I best make room for that because right now I feel stressed about all of it.
Not to mention spending 20 hours a week at the former place of employ. I so want to end that assignment but I agreed to stay until the end of August and the nice woman I’m working with (who was one of my besties there before) relies on me a lot. Not to even mention that Duty feels better to have some income rolling in without fail every two weeks.
Yes, Guides, I hear you. They just said stop offloading your guilt onto other people and making excuses. And then I pop over to Facebook and see this posted from Danielle Laporte. Fine, fine, fine. I get it.
Here’s what I really want:
1) Time to write and create my programs free from dogs going in and out of the house.
2) A dose of FOCUS! And skills to go along with that. The only way I was able to get some stuff written was going to the library sans computer and handwriting stuff. I think I may need to go again, like soon.
3) A day by the ocean.
That’s not asking for much, is it? IS IT???
(Deep breath)
Carry on, then.
The Gal Herself is SO right — we are here on this earth, in this particular body, time, and place to learn and push ourselves in new directions. So, yes, the more serious we are about that endeavor, it stands to reason that we will also be asking ourselves to do more challenging actions.
ON THE OTHER HAND, learning can be fun. I’ve always felt that I, and perhaps you (??) need to build in time for creative, imaginative stuff. Sounds to me like you’ve got too much on your plate.
Get through this round and recognize that in the future you want schedule yourself quite so tightly?
Let me share an insight courtesy of my oldest friend’s shrink — “Compare and despair.” You don’t know what’s *really* going on in anyone else’s life, so comparing yourself w/that woman in your group is not only destined to make you feel bad, it may not even be valid. It sounds like you’re not happy with your own progress in your heart, so use her as inspiration but try to ignore the jealousy.