And if that’s so, Mittster, they are mean, shitty, short-sighted people.
Here’s a quiz:
When’s the best time to lay someone off?
A) never
B) never
C) a week after they’ve had damn near close to a heart attack
If you guessed C, you’d be a candidate for management in YOPOE. Because that is what they did. They laid off the nice cage lady yesterday. A week after her heart scare. Nice, eh?
And now, yours truly finds herself full-time in the cage with no backup. So, that’s smart thinking, right?
All so they can bring in two people who do not know the system – AT ALL – to fulfill whatever “vision” they have for how to do things. Conveniently forgetting that I’ll be leaving in 50 weeks. (And if you don’t know I’m counting those days on a big calendar marked with X’s like in prison, you don’t know me at all.)
I hate corporate America and am so glad that this is temporary because I will never, ever go back to it. This is it for me. I will make PI work as a full-time income decently producing work if it kills me because this? This abomination? I. just. cannot. Everyone in the branch was stunned and angry on her behalf. This is a woman who is living in an extended stay motel with no car and desperately needed the job. And they knew that.
I do not understand why they’d let someone highly competent at her job – a very detail oriented, has-to-run-smoothly-or-shit-gets-fucked-up-everywhere job – go to bring in morons (no offense to said morons) who have to be trained, thus doubling the work of EVERYONE on the already-stressed-out support staff. For what? They were paying nice cage lady shit. I saw what they paid her. It’s shit.
If you can’t tell, I am highly agitated over this.
Yes, I knew it was a possibility and had even talked to my boss about how to keep her and show them things would be fine but since he’s been rendered completely impotent, I may as well have been talking to the wall. He chooses to suck it down and get run over and everyone else pays the price. Isn’t that lovely? And the branch rakes in money hand over fist that doesn’t go to anyone but …. the big-wigs.
I so want to just say ‘fuck it’ and quit but I made a promise and I am choosing to live up to it. I regret, with all my heart, saying yes and only did so because I felt we had no choice.
Now, things are in upheaval there, I’m stuck where I do not want to be, it’s costing us $600/month for the dogs to go to daycare (would have been $800 but she cut us a break) all for what?
And, on top of that, PI may soon be flailing because I can’t keep up with it all.
A bright spot is that several of the brokers in the office have sent out word to see if anyone they know has job openings and there were a couple indications of interest for her so fingers crossed, she gets something. YOPOE gave her a month’s severance so she has a wee bit of breathing room but not much. I am so angry at them for doing this now. Stupid asses. Can’t see past the next damn day, making decisions that affect everyone in a negative way in a place where there’s already a shitstorm of unhappiness and unrest.
Sigh. This is corporate America. A place I refuse to ever return to if I have any choice.
Oh Universe. This is NOT what I wanted. (And yes, tiny first world problems, etc. I know. I get it. I still can feel pissy about what is going on in my life.)
This is fucked-up and bullshit and this is my life right now. (Duty is taking it hard and there’s nothing I can do about that. I can’t hide my sadness over all this. (I tried.))
So, there you have it. No cheery coating, friends. None. Shit is fucked up and bullshit.
Wow. Just wow. This made me kinda nauseous. For you, for her and peripherally for Duty. And for your clients! All so sad.
Cuddle a canine. It sounds simplistic, but it’s not. Take strength from the their lack of artifice, their sincerity. It can be very powerful at times like this.
There is a lesson?
Take the job as offering to Duty?
Quit the job as offering to your Self?
(You can give them a month to find your replacement AND tell them of your extreme disappointment in their firing of cage lady?)
Julie,
I like your idea of putting my mind (and you putting yours) to manifesting what the next stage will be. I wish I knew why I’m there, what it means for me in the larger picture but I really, really don’t.
All I can say is that everything in me is rebelling against this. This weekend, I am writing down what I really, truly want and am embracing it and asking for a door to be opened. Even if it’s a hard door to walk through, if it gets me to that next place. I will do it. Right now, it’s hard for me to see it.
I have to trust that this was what nice cage lady needed for her highest good and my sincere hope is that she gets something better shortly.
(Sigh) Thanks for your pep talk. It’s a reminder that I DO have control over this situation and if I don’t like it, I can change it. (And always cheering you on for your Part II!)
Huh. Well the actions of YOP do not surprise me since, let’s face it, it’s typical.
But I do find it *very interesting* that you feel stuck there (on the way in – again) and I feel stuck at mine (and increasingly feeling like I am on my way out).
I have this “my work here is damn near done” feeling and I am resisting their nonsense and rules. When (not if) they come to me and say,”You may not take so many smoke breaks,” or some such nonsense my reaction will be,”I can only change this far and beyond that if you don’t like it you are welcome to fire me.” So boundaries coming up big time for us both??
When I read what you wrote everything in me said,”Please just quit. Immediately.”
I like having the income and a place to go to every day that gives me some structure, and sometimes I enjoy what I do but not nearly often enough. You, too?
Since manifesting can be instantaneous (surprisingly so) these last couple of months, I do wonder what might happen if we put our minds to the next stage. You seem to know why you are there and for how long and so of course I respect that! But man oh man, I am ready for Part II.