As part of an ongoing series, here’s the next installment of Letters I’ll Never Send
Dear Person who keeps showing up in my dreams,
I miss you. A lot.
And I can feel your energy waxing and waning around mine in the ether. You show up as a pilot taking me on a trip to Italy, as an actor in a play and as yourself, talking to me on the phone, planning a visit. (And that’s just in the last week or so.)
There’s so much you represent in my life and always have. While I’d like to believe that somehow you’re reading these words and know I’m talking to you, I also know that’s wishful thinking on my part.
But just in case it’s not, know this: there’s a bond that was here before this lifetime and will be there when we roll back into all that is in the great beyond. As the official High Priestess of the Woo, I can say this with all certainty. :)
You matter to me – always have, always will. There is a place in my ♥ that is yours alone regardless of what else happens in this lifetime.
Here’s a song for you:
Dear Family whom I love,
I’m beginning to see how I’ve set myself up as someone who needs nothing from you but that is not the truth. As I come into a more clearer understanding of why I’ve chosen that (and am un-creating that now), I see things from a different perspective. I know, in my heart of hearts, that if I needed you, all I’d have to do is say that and you would be there for me. That counts for a lot and I thank you for that knowledge. I also know it’s up to me to own what I need and that is my intention going forward. I am now asking “What else is possible?” here and trusting that it will be shown to me.
(How’s that for being a non-pissy and whiny post?)
Big love to Jody, Gal, Gorky and Julie for being willing to reflect back to me what I can’t (yet) see for myself. Your words helped a lot and especially your willingness to show me more of the truth of myself.