I don’t have a lot of this in my life and I really want it. You know, those moments when you feel alive and passionate about … something. Those things that make your heart feel full. Like Gal and her Cubs.
(And FYI, Gal, I actually volunteered to be a delegate for Bernie and attend the Democratic convention in Philly in July. I have to apply for it in person (which I’ll do this week once the federal gov’t reopens) and see what comes of it.)
Does everyone’s life feel mundane with pockets of joy? Or is someone out there living a life of regular joy and pockets of the mundane? I need to know this. Because my life feels grayer than gray most days. It’s possible this is about the thyroid wackiness (again!) and it’s metabolic. I don’t know.
We had a big snow over the weekend (about 18 inches here) but we were prepared for it. Duty loves getting out there with a snowblower – men and their toys, eh? I’m just glad after his heart scare a couple weeks ago that he didn’t do a lot of shoveling.
I wish I had more fun things to say in this post. Alas, I do not. But I was due for an update so you all (3 of youse) know I didn’t perish in the #Snowmageddon2016.
I am, for the most part, happy. Not today, because my cat is slipping away and my gut is still a mess and I hate my boss, but those are visceral reasons to be sad. When not confronted with something that makes me sad, I tend to be happy.
I sometimes wonder WHY I’m so happy. I think that maybe I’m in the moment too much and don’t realize that the moments turn into years and then I find myself in a messy two-bedroom condo with my bathroom STILL not done and no significant other (which makes me sad whenever I fill out a doctor’s form and I realize I have no one to contact “in case of emergency”) and instead of doing anything about anything, I get happy because there’s an article about the 25th anniversary of one of my favorite movies, Ordinary People, appears in EW. Or someone auctions a letter JBKO wrote and I get to peek into how her mind worked … or I see a photo of The Lads from Liverpool I’ve never seen before … or I hear that Kris Bryant is about to be married and I’m happy because he’s such a nice boy ….
So I don’t know if this is a good way to be, either. For perhaps I could have accomplished more with my life if I’d been less satisfied living in my solitary, dreamy “other” world.
I just posted how depressed I am because of my gastrointestinal malady. Consequently I wouldn’t discount the impact your bod is having on you. Plus, I like the snow and cold. I like when it gets dark early and I can see clearly into people’s windows. But I know this weather can be brutal on some people’s moods and a touch of SAD might be making you sad.
And YEA to becoming a delegate! That will be so incredibly exciting. Philadelphia! Corny as it sounds, I still believe in the system and to be part of it in the very cradle of our democracy … AWESOME!
I have mundane with bursts of joy.