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The End of Truthiness

December 8, 2010 Written by Lisa

So, here we are at Day 30 of Troofs. This one is hard and I’m not gonna pretend mine will even be half as awesome as The Gal’s entry but it will be from the my heart, so there’s that.

Here we go: Day 30 :: A letter to yourself. Tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

Dear Lisa,

Know what? The very best thing about you is your tender heart. Remember Care Bears? How could you have been anything *but* TenderHeart Bear? You don’t hold grudges, want love and light and happiness for just about everyone and know how to let your heartlight shine. When you love someone, you love them with all your heart. (Um, and when you don’t? You don’t with all your heart!) Those whom you love know it without question. Just like there was nothing left unsaid between you and Lauren – she knew, unequivocally, how you felt about her.

The second best thing about you is your willingness to be a dorky 12 year old and show that to the world. Most people have an inner dork and when one finds the other, it’s like a secret hand signal or something is exchanged. If truth be known, that’s really the best side of you. Your inner dork = love.

Growing and changing and being the best Lisa you can be while on this earth is your fondest wish. (That and those damn shoes!) You will never be complacent about that.

One day you will come to realize what a gift you have in writing and doing the woo-work. You sort of know it now but don’t fully get it. You will. It’s the work of your soul and you know that fully. The more you bring it out, the stronger it gets.

To sum up, you’re a sweetie. Sometimes a moody sweetie. But always a sweetie.

Love,
Me

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Almost finished with the troof

December 4, 2010 Written by Lisa

And then I can go back to lying my ass off and making shit up about my life. Because that’s how I roll, baybee!

So, I’ve been in a teeny grumpy rut for the past week or so and was having trouble summoning up the requisite love and light stuff over on Practically Intuitive. Started writing a bit about clearing astral entities (I am getting many clients of late loaded down with them) but that just wasn’t happening. When words become stilted to me, I know it’s not time to write that. Anyway, was reminded (thank you Angels) of my last “Ask an Intuitive” post where I got a good response from readers just asking me questions about something in their life. I would go through and respond with whatever came to me.

When I did it last time, the first person who asked and I answered responded with “Sorry, no. That’s not it at all.” That was awesome to have as a very first comment, right?? LOL Didn’t seem to bother anyone, though. I had about 10 people pose questions.

This time, though, my friend Anna at Psychic but Sane put it out on her Facebook page and her twitter feed and WHOA! I got a ton of people visit the site. On each of the two days I ran this, I got about 300 hits (I usually get about 100 a day). And forty people responded with queries. Very interesting and fun and it totally -totally- pulled me out of my stuck place. Not only that, but I got a bunch of new email subscribers and a couple reading requests. YEY!

So, sludge is gone and I’m back to troofing with consequences. Aren’t you so very, very lucky?

Day 26 â†’ Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Just once, really, and the thought of what it might do to those I loved (okay, mostly just Lauren) was enough to pull me back from the edge. It wasn’t even a real thought – more like “It’d be nice to just make all this go away.” So, never seriously. That’s not my gig. I’ll stay ’til I’m done.

Day 27 â†’ Whatâ€™s the best thing going for you right now?
My excitement about what 2011 will bring for Practically Intuitive. I am hell bent on making that business successful and plan on new offerings and ramping up the marketing and getting my name out there big time. Also, my godson who is the light of my life. And possibly shoes. (you know the ones)

Day 28 â†’ What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
I love Gal’s response to this so so much that I am outright stealing it: “This question annoys me because it assumes I’m both sexually active and young enough to get pregnant. We’re not all potential breeders, about to board the ark in pairs, you know.” (Also too, menopause so just no. No babies, no how. Obviously, I can convince others to have them for me, right?)

Day 29 â†’ Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Predictably, I’d say my chubs. I’m down with the “hopey, changey” thing and it springs eternal when it comes to me and my body. Joined the gym again (sigh) and will be going there with some regularity but will not be blowing my knees out or anything like last time. My goal is to get there and do the best I can. (Is that sad? Do I suck?)

Also, too: I need to stop following the Sarah Palin blogs but I just cannot seem to help myself. FEH.

Oh, and don’t tell me this manifesting thing I’ve been doing isn’t working! I chose $600 for November’s amount so we can get Max’s teeth cleaned. I got two readings ($150) but by the end of the month wasn’t any closer to the $600. Which made sense since I chose the word “consciousness” and got so much dissonance in the first few days of it that I gave up. (You’re not supposed to do it that way, you know.) But when I look back at the month, while I sorta blew my consciousness around food, I upped it on a couple levels. Anyway – long story short: A woman at work who gives me extra $$ to be her assistant’s back up remembered that she hadn’t paid me for the last 6 months. (I feel guilty taking the money because I would do the work anyway but she insisted.) She gave me a check for (wait for it) $600! Ta-Da! So, last month I manifested $750. Woo hoo!

Gonna aim for more again this month and pick a word that’s closer to what I think my vibration might be. That way, it won’t create so much dissonance.

Wow … I did have a lot to say, yes?

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You can’t handle the truth!

November 29, 2010 Written by Lisa

Then again, maybe you can!

Day 25 â†’ The reason you believe youâ€™re still alive today.

Short and simple answer: because my work on this physical plane is not yet complete. When I get to a point where it is finished, I’ll be ready to move to the next plane of existence.

Bottom line: you’re stuck with me for now.

Did you know:

1. The wonderful and most talented Jody – frequent commenter here and on Practically Intuitive – has started a blog of her own? You can find her over at Carr Talk. I hope this sticks around a while. I like reading the thoughts in her head.

2. that I read a blog called “Confessions of a Cashier” and actually look forward to each post? I just like her way of complaining. It sounds like the voice in my own head.

3. Speaking of complaining – I need some days off where I don’t have to deal with people. Damn. I hate it. I should be thankful that I deal with mostly nice ones and not the kind that Cashier (above) runs into every day. (repeats to self: gratitude, gratitude, gratitude, cookies, gratitude … ad infinitum.)

Speaking of Cookies – we may be getting a new doggie!! Our neighbor volunteers at the local pet adoption place and is fostering a sweet – beyond sweet – golden retriever named Sandy (female) whom we met tonight. Now y’all know that I’m a cat lady through and through but I fell totally in love with this pupster. We’ll see how she does with kitty cats which will be the deciding factor (well, that and that she won’t bite Max’s face off like Pirate Doggie did in April). Pics to follow. Her name as given is Sandy but she shall be renamed Cookie when we officially adopt her. Wheee!

In honor of our impending (I hope) new family member, here’s a goggie fuh youze:

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Playlists for Truth

November 28, 2010 Written by Lisa

Continuing on with the 30 Days of Truth, here’s question 24:

Day 24 â†’ Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Hmm, music has such power for me to evoke emotion and where I was at that point in my life. I think I’ll dedicate this playlist to me and some of the milestones they embody.

Age 10: Partridge Family “Summer Days” (hokey ass song if ever there was one)
This lyric ” … we reached the top of the world together / there, you give your love to me / and I remember perfectly / high above all time and space / and I remember summer days” – well, I thought “there you give your love to me” meant she gave him her heart. Yeah. No. Not so much. I do believe she gave him something else, though. Something a ten year old in 1970 couldn’t quite wrap her head around just yet.

Age 18 and first days of fall and going to college: “Right down the line” Gerry Rafferty
I hear this song and it’s fall 1978 and I’m working at a fast food place, hanging with my friend Laurie and getting ready to go to Towson University. Good times. Totally. Love this song!

Age 28 and hanging out with the hellish boyfriend: “Waiting for a star to fall” by Boy Meets Girl – this song was all over the radio and it reminds me of finding out that he was a cheating ass. It took me about two years to get rid of that association and now it’s one of my most favorite songs. Trivia: it was written for Whitney Houston but she passed on it so the original songwriters recorded it. It’s such a happy song, isn’t it?

Age 32 – so so so codependently and desperately in love with a married man and the soundtrack that summer was “Ghost” by the Indigo Girls.

The lyric that says it all: “and i feel it like a sickness how this love is killing me / but i’d walk into the fingers of your fire willingly / and dance the edge of sanity i’ve never been this close / in love with your ghost”

This song was what got me through a month where he and I agreed not to talk – he’d call me and the song would be on in the background – we’d say nothing and just hang up when the song was done. It was so dramatic but I had never felt like that for anyone before and it just about killed me. This is a truly poetic and beautiful song. Give a listen. It’s worth your time. Trust me.

“My bitter pill to swallow is the silence that I keep …. in love with your ghost” – yeah, I’m not crying over here or anything.

Age 42: This comes from a period that has its own playlist and it was during my “dark night of the soul” that eventually led me to where I am now. This song by Incubus Wish you were here brings me back every time I hear it along with “Barely Breathing” by Duncan Sheik – wanna know the kicker lyric for me? “Don’t know who I’m kidding imagining you care …” and a big bunch of others capped with “Pictures of you” by The Cure. Ah, good times, that dark night of the soul.

Age 48-49: The year(s) of my Cookie obsession (which is just in hiding until his new cd comes out in 2011) I’d list some of my favorite YouTube clips but there’s too many. Here he is at his most beautiful vocally: “Avalanche” from just about a year ago. He will always be on my playlist. For reals. I loves him.

(I’ve had fun going back and listening to the video clips. Especially the David Cassidy one – I think I have a thing for singers named David.)

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Truthiness

November 23, 2010 Written by Lisa

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah …. I’m here.

Traditionally, I do a “What I’m thankful for” post around this time o’year …. and I suppose I’ll get around to that Thursday morning. Until then, though, you’re stuck with me and troof days 22 and 23.

Day 22 â†’ Something you wish you hadnâ€™t done in your life.

Off the twenty bizillion things I wish I hadn’t done (dated a psychopath, let my mother dress me, get those two guinea pigs), the one I most wish I hadn’t done is go back to eating sugar after my surgery in 1997. I was sugar free for about 6 months because I heard it would do horrible things to your tummy (and weight loss) if you ate it. But I succumbed, calling my friend to ask her (she was over 2 years out of surgery) if I could have six peanut M&Ms or would it kill me. I wish she said the latter. Alas, here I sit, 13 years and many pounds later, still digging on the sugar. Poops.

Day 23 â†’ Something you wish you had done in your life.

Shall I get maudlin here for you? I wish that I had been able to have a baby. By the time I got around to even thinking about it, my body had other ideas and closed up shop fast. I would have sucked as a 40 year old mom so I bow, as always, to the infinite wisdom of the Universe. But had I made different choices in my earlier days, I’d have had a child. It would have made me a completely different person (as those things do) but I’m sure I would have gotten just as many (if not more) lessons.

My family has been so great, providing me with lots of peeps to love (looking at you, Niece of Artsy-Fartsy, Godson of Love and the best Luke Skywalker around) and the opportunity to have as close to a child in this world as I had in Lauren. I have an abundance of love and that’s really the best thing. So, next lifetime, perhaps a child. She will be named Sophie and will be an avid reader and blogger and incipient cat lady, like her mother.

Yep, that’s some maudlin ass shit, innit??

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