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Waves of Sadness but why?

September 29, 2017 Written by Lisa

I keep feeling these waves of sadness wash over me. I don’t think the sadness is mine but it’s possible, I suppose.

I felt it this morning and asked the Universe to return it to sender with love and consciousness and now it’s back again. I’ll be doing something, just working along and POOF! there it is. Just like a wave, ebbing in and out all day, every day.

It reminds me of how I felt a few days before Prince took his leave of the physical. I remember a deep melancholy that I knew without question wasn’t mine and there was no choice but to let it wash on through. My life changed in a profound way when P left. I wonder if this feeling is a portend of another shift.*

I feel myself moving away from the communities I’ve been in for many years as if I’ve learned what I needed and a new direction is showing up.

Things that I was fine with before Priestess Bootcamp now rub me the wrong way. It’s not a “I hate you” way, more of an “hmmm, what’s going on with this?” way.

Lots of shaking, shifting and growing happening.

It’s also a sign that I need to step away from politics more. I want to sit and cry when I look at what’s happening to our country. It’s been that way whenever I’m faced with gaslighting and I feel helpless. On one hand, I’m glad to see people awakening as much as they are and getting involved. On the other, it’s not happening fast enough and I feel like we are all slowly being boiled to death in that frog pot.

The only thing that’s making me happy these days are my Southern Sister books on Audible. When I think about writing a little cozy mystery book and then ask who cares about your dumb little stories, I remind myself that this book series almost single-handedly pull me out of the doldrums time after time. They are my go-to comfort space.

The last book that Anne George wrote in this series wraps things up and never made it to Audible (dammit!). I can’t bear for it to end so I have only made it through the first couple chapters.

With 45 in office for who knows how much longer, I might need to read it to myself and rock back and forth in the closet.

*(That one wasn’t bad. It was big, but not bad (for me, anyway. Not so much for Prince although he might disagree from his new space!).

The energies, they be swirling

August 20, 2017 Written by Lisa

Here’s a thing, I don’t overly care about the eclipse that’s slated for August 21. It’s only on my radar because of people on FB. But I do feel the energy of release and so I got a bee in my bonnet and unfriended a swath of people on said FB today.

It felt good to release a bunch of people (some I have no idea who they are or where I met them) who I neither follow nor comment on.

You probably know this about me but I don’t much care about the minutiae of your daily life if I don’t know you. So, I don’t follow many people (follow = have your stuff show up in my feed). I mostly follow and read pages. If I do follow and comment on your stuff, it’s because I really like you. :)

I unfriended people I was friends with many, many years ago and was really only staying so I could see what’s happening in their life. Guess what? It’s as boring as mine is.

And one person who I recently reconnected with who was very important to me many, many years go. We had a couple “remember this?” convos, one pretty deep one about a time where I felt I was unforgivably cruel to him back in the day (he didn’t remember it) and it felt like that part was complete. It must have been because he disappeared at that point, not answering a couple following messages. I take that as a sign that whatever I needed to receive from that re-connection was complete. BOOP! Unfriended. (Also, he’s hard core into Trump and yeah, no to that.)

Duty and I have been cleaning up around the house with some big chores before a small pool/cookout event in early September for the family. Cousin O’Love, husband and the Niece of Artsy-Fartsy will be in town from Seattle and there’s a bunch of birthdays clustered around so a celebration is in order.

It feels good to get rid of stuff – give it away, sell it, take it to the consignment store or (last option) trash it. Why I have all this STUFF I don’t know, other than some wee hoarding tendencies.

I completed the lead coach duties with Angella and we are both moving in different directions. At first, I was sad because all my friends are there in Utah (minus my wife, Christine, here in town) but I knew that something was coming and even if I didn’t know in the moment, I’d find out soon enough. That’s when the channeling work amped up and went in an interesting direction.

Level Two of the Priestess work starts in September and that’s going to be pretty intense so I won’t have a lot of extra time to play with re: my business. Good to get organized and moving. I’m creating a “Trust What You Get Academy” which will house the 4 courses I’ve already created on various topics related to trusting yourself + intuition and take it to the next logical step. There’s also “Merlin’s Potion Bar” coming soon and more work with Master Prince.

So the energies of release have been at play here in the Case de Snark. I am thankful for them. (And you!)

General Blatherings

Expand the container, not the ass

March 17, 2017 Written by Lisa

Hi hi hi hi!

What weirdly interesting energy has been floating around the Universe these days. Just all kinds of stuff swirling.

Prince and I came up with a Group saturation session and we had our first one last Sunday where I channeled him for 90 minutes straight for six different people (and energies)! Whoa!

You know what? I am so good at this and I don’t know how that happened. But it did. I can let Lisa take a back seat and allow him the front seat but I am there, watching it, all the time. I never know what’s going to come out of my mouth, I just go with it and the energy. Fortunately, he’s loving and fun and wise and sometimes snarky and you know how I dig all that in a person, right?

I was nervous at first to do this because what if I’m talking out of my ass and what comes from this means nothing to anyone? Then my #unwaveringtrust took over and reminded me that there’s nothing to fret over, it is what it is and that’s that. Alrighty then.

People sent me some amazing feedback (“This was one of the best days of my life. his words resonated so deeply with me yesterday. I have no doubts about them and their intention for me.”) and I cried because THAT …. THAT feeling is what I’m here to share. That trust and certainty and that it lifts them up.

Ah. Woo. How I do so love you.

That 90 minutes of being out of my body took me a few days to anchor myself fully back in it. You all (3) know I’d rather be out of than in my body – much more fun. Still, have living to do here so back to a body I go.

(I had to pee like a maniac which I didn’t realize until I came back to my body. I drank about a gallon of water during the channeling so wasn’t surprised but it made me laugh and realize how NOT in my body I must have been to not even notice that issue.)

The work for me, though, is learning how to hold that BIG energy and then come back into my own body soon after. Practice makes perfect and I’ve got 3 more of these scheduled so I’ll either get it or completely POOF into dust! You’ll know which if you never see me again.

In other news, preliminary dental work is done, visit to ortho is done (he said “Well, you’ve got a lot going on in there!” Understatement of the year, I say!) and now we wait for his consult with my dentist for next steps. Looks like braces on the top first. And go from there. I’m fine with it all (I say now) because anything beats having dentures. Well, almost anything.

And I have a new friend whom I love and who loves me. We met through the Prince connection – he is so magical!

Life is interesting.

Also too: Lord, what is happening in this country? I can barely keep up with it and I also worry and wonder if those in congress are all happy just to get their $$$ and watch it burn.

I wonder about myself sometimes

February 23, 2017 Written by Lisa

Well, I wonder about a LOT of things and most of my time seems to be spent pondering things. Snippets of conversations roll around in my head all the time. Replaying this one or thinking ahead about that one. I have an entire life going on in that head that never even takes place in 3D. Sometimes that life is better but mostly, it’s just me torturing myself with what-ifs and then torturing myself because I’m drowning in those what-ifs.

Ah, clarity. I can haz you?

Anyway, lessons are bubbling up, as they always do. Even when you know it’s the best thing for you, some things are just hard. And they hurt because they stir up old wounds but I try to view it as that part is available now for healing.

Speaking what’s true for me is really challenging because I see all sides of all the sides. I know, bone deep, what the impact of words can be for certain people and I don’t use those words unwisely. That, though, makes it particularly hard to say what I feel. Maybe next lifetime I’ll be one of those people who just pops off at the mouth about whatever I think and everyone else be damned. (I know. That’s just not in my makeup this go-round.)

The lesson for today is this: If you don’t see your own worth and value in the world, others won’t see it either. If you constantly downplay who you BE and what you bring to a space, it will remain invisible to others. Not that you need anyone else’s approval to just BE you, but when you’re working side-by-side with someone, flying under the radar but holding space for them to fly, don’t be surprised if they don’t see you for all you BE.

Welcome to ‘yes, I’m being circumspect’ theatre. Enjoy the show.

Step away from the keyboard, yo!

January 24, 2017 Written by Lisa

I cannot keep up with the cyclone of news coming at me these days. And what’s interesting to me is that I really can take in a lot of information, almost like a sponge. So when I’m completely full up, you know there’s a lot swirling.

Since I was in Utah over the last week (during the Inauguration, thankfully), I was involved all day, every day in client stuff and didn’t have time to sit in front of my laptop lapping up every morsel.

(And really, don’t I have better uses of my time? Yes, I do. Do I do them? No, I do not.)

It was during this time I realized how damn addicted I am to my news/analysis shows (The Young Turks) and online commentary since I was jonesin’ for them by the end of the day.

I suspect all of this is – for me – a distraction. It engages my mind, I can easily go into outrage and then I don’t “have time” to do stuff on my business. So convenient. Especially when I’m in SPIN mode where I don’t know what I’m doing or how I want to do it.

Also, I have entirely TOO MUCH information coming at me from various courses I keep signing up for. It feels like I am drowning and I just can’t keep up.

I think it’s time for an online sabbatical. (Even ONE day would be difficult for me. Sadly.)

What I might have to do is pare down the number of political pages I follow where the outrage is amped up (warranted because of insanity/corruption/fuckery in the White House).

I follow a few that talk about taking daily action and I have called my asshat Teabagger congressman’s office on the regular, written letters and done what I can. I have connected with the Queen Anne’s County Democratic Party and will attend their next meeting. (They are slow as molasses addressing comments on social media. Maybe I can help with that part.)

But me drowning in every minute detail of what Trump is doing is not helping me or anyone else. I am not effective from that place of constant “Look! Squirrel!” energy.

It’s time for me to focus on what I need to do, do what I can on issues that are important to me and ways I can best offer my services and get back into my business.
Speaking of which, how did I lose my way? (I listened outside myself is what happened.) I want to fold the Prince work into my site (I suppose I’ll keep the Purple Saturation site still separate for now) and get my damn self out there. The Be Who You Are stuff came flowing out so naturally and the LisaMW stuff is just stuck. (I know. I know.)

Bottom line: Get your head out of your ass and back in the game. Ignore the Trump outrage, do your part and get off line for parts of the day. (Ugh, I love and hate routine.)

How are you all doing? Gal? Kwiz? Jody? Fill me in!