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I guess that wasn’t so bad after all

April 26, 2013 Written by Lisa

Dear three five readers,

Well, I made it through the time of astrological turmoil unscathed, I think. YEY! It WAS definitely a time of intense revelations (as I wrote about last time) – all of which I diligently worked through (and again, big ass thanks to my coach who has been with me this whole way).

whew

It all started with me worrying that the Universe was going to take something (someone) away that I loved. And it ended with a closer relationship with my Dad (now in Spirit) and a willingness to be open to letting other things BE in my life.

Looking at how my mom just shut herself down after she was forced to give up the love of her life and then again after my dad died, I see that I also do that in certain areas. (As I mentioned in the last post as well.)

OPENING up my heart to what I want and even more OWNING that I want it is my next level of work. You’d think that would be easy, right? hahahah You know me not, my friends! :) But what you DO know and what IS true is that I will walk into that work and see what’s waiting for me. Because there is joy and growth there (and you know I’m all about the personal growth, yo.).

Stay tuned.

On other non-life-transforming fronts:

* Looking at another doggie named Pearl. (That name will change. It reminds me of old people. She’s not really a Cookie, much as I want her to be, alas.) We’ll see how she gets along with the Broganator. I have no idea why I’m doing this which is often not such a good sign. We’ll know for sure when we meet her tomorrow.

* Ever the Libra: I don’t overly mind going in to work at ye olde place of employ every day but all told, I’d rather not. But then (here comes the Libra voice) I never got much accomplished when I hung out at home all day so even if I want to stay home and have delusions about doing all kinds of cool stuff, in reality, I mostly fart around. Probably better that I take my ass somewhere and accomplish something.

* Over at Practically Intuitive, I’ve come home to doing what I know I do really well and, as an extra added bonus, I’m actually claiming it! I have no idea how I got to be a hugely clear channel for Spirit Guide teams but I am. And I’m seriously awesome at it. So, claiming and owning that 100% instead of making it just another tool in the toolbox. All this makes me laugh (in a sort of sad, ironic “what a dumbass you can be” sort of way) because I started out my woo-career (professionally) doing SG readings and then meandered onto another path and another and finally another only to end up right back here where I started.

I supposed I had to go through those path$ (and spend a lot of money doing it) to acknowledge what I knew was true all along. My gifts are thus: 1) Channel for Spirit Guide teams 2) writer 3) ability to take their guidance and help people turn words into actions 4)help them do it with a warm, loving heart and 5)see others at soul level and help them see that, too. I know my focus now – and I’m running with it (at full speed, mind you!)

Ta for now, darlings!

Blah blah blah, Guides and Teachers, What's that about?

Ouch! My ass and other things you are dying to hear about – the Spring edition

March 19, 2013 Written by Lisa

Here my A’s to your (unasked-for-but-I-can-read-your-mind) Q’s:

Dear FOUR readers whom I love muchly,

1) Yes, I did, in fact, spend $65 on a sports bra at Nordstroms because there is no way you can jump rope with double D’s and not live to regret it. Just sayin’, mmkay? I think the puppies are relatively strapped down but short of wearing two bras (which I hear IS done), this is as good as it gets.

2) I thought I was a loner. That must have changed some time in the last year because I’m more “lonely” than “loner” these days. Surely there’s a balance between dealing with morons for 8 hours a day AND sitting at home, sulking in silence, yes? I believe I haz found it. Read on, Mcduff!

3) Day 2 of part-time work position and I am quite happy about it. I don’t have to deal with 100 ringing phones, morons at the front desk, and idiot brokers (although speaking of such, Mr. Big Stuff gave me a huge hug when he saw me back in the office. Usually he talks shit about people and throws them under the bus. I believe he has done both with me at some point but it’s no longer relevant so he can be magnanimous, I suppose.). I am back in the corner suite working with the highest producing team in the office (MBS is knocking it out of the park this year – these ladies will have to kick some ass to catch up with him!) and their phones are not (too) crazy and I get to do all the crap work! YEY! (Seriously, give me a task and let me research and I’m happy.)

4) Part 2 of work: I am so happy to have a routine again and see my friends. I missed them all. And it’s also nice to be welcomed back into the fold with open arms. This may be a good balance between PI stuff and non-PI stuff. Plenty of time for both and it keeps me focused and moving so RAH RAH for me!

5) Brogan is LOVING his time at the doggie day care with second mama Melissa. He comes home exhausted and it’s so peaceful and nice. Win/Win for all.

6) Why is my ass ouching? Crossfit trainer takes no pity on the chubster. Just none. Today we did 5 overhead presses (I did 15lbs), 10 deadlifts and 15 step-ups. As many rounds as we could in 10 minutes. (I did 3) 15 lbs isn’t too bad the first go-round (and stop laughing at me all you people who are pressing a kazillion pounds in your sleep) but by the 3rd, my arms were tired, my butt was aching from doing the squats and the step ups and whew! My heart was beating out of my chest. I’ll be paying for this tomorrow.
Woman relaxes in a marble tiled bath tub.
I need some wine, a bubble bath and a massage.

None of which I’ll be getting tonight.

But a girl can dream, right?

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Snow! And what I’m grateful for these days

January 24, 2013 Written by Lisa

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Dear People who visit me here,

Thank you! I’m glad that there are some who want to read my blatherings still. I notice that at times of despair or trauma, this space has been my refuge. I need to also find joy and peace here in the good times as well.

Today, I think I’ll share what I am grateful for because even though some days it feels invisible to me, it’s always there. Here goes!

1) Brogan seeing snow for the first time today – it befuddled him and he tried to lick a lot of it up giving him a wet, white muzzle. Too cute.

2) Working from home is best when you hear the roads are crap and you can say “I have nowhere to be but right here.” I can enjoy the pretty snow all I want.

3) Most days, I like Facebook – it helps me keep in touch with my friends (near and far) and I find out about stuff fast that way. Also, it gives me an outlet for my “Town Crier” needs. (I co-mod a page on the Bay Bridge and I get to do it with my trademarked snarky humor and everyone seems happy. The guy who runs it is a bit confrontational and as we all know, I am not. It brings a nice balance to the page and people seem to like it.)

4) While I fell off my routine of going in my “office” at 9am this week, I am making my way back to doing it. I did a big two-night tele-class last week and fried my brain and then had to deal with some fallout so I’ve stepped back a bit. I’m heading back there, though. (YEY for being alive and kicking!)

5) I have such a wonderful best friend. She really, truly gives me so much food for thought, lifts me up when I’m down, listens ad nauseum to me mope and always points the way to a brighter space. In so many ways, I’d be lost without her. Surprise! We’ve never met in person but I couldn’t be closer to her if we did. She’s a gem. Love you, Gorky!

6) I am so lucky that Duty supports me in my dreams. (Literally and figuratively) Since Max left us last year and broke Duty’s heart wide open, he’s been a different person. Like my bestie, he picks me up when I’ve fallen down (a lot lately, it seems) and cheers me on. My wish is to create an income that allows HIM to follow his dream even if he’s not sure what that is, exactly.

How’s that for a not-too-terribly-whiny post? (I just didn’t have the heart to dump on you guys again! The whinies are for my coach and my journal!)

Blah blah blah, General Blatherings

My life at 52: a quick retrospective

October 22, 2012 Written by Lisa

Holy Cow – 52!  I still feel about 28 in my head (16 if I’m at a Cookie show!) so writing those numbers out and making them real isn’t too fun.

But it is what it is (as the kids say).

Looking back at this day last year, I remember that Duty was away on business, my work showered me with love and a cake I hated (but then BrokerBoy (and his wife) made it right) and I was eating a Paleoriffic diet and felt good.  I had no idea how different things would look just 365 days later.

A Quick Retrospective of a year well lived (or something)

This time last year:

  • Max and Lucie were still hanging in there, celebrating along and keeping me company.  I miss them both every single day.
  • I was stuck working full-time with BrokerBoy while also doing my cage duties full-time.  The stress was pretty wretched.  I was unhappy most of the day.  He treated me decently (for the most part until MinionBoy came into the picture and I was no longer the confidant of choice) but carrying both jobs and feeling crappy at both wasn’t a recipe for joy.
  • Practically Intuitive was chugging along, having risen from the dead of that summer when I realized I couldn’t add yet another “job” into the mix.  Things had gone quiet (as they do during the summer, it seems) and I was just floating.  But when I realized how much energy I was giving to BB and not to my own self and my business, I realized my priorities were hella outta whack.

Things are so so so different now.  But what a ride it’s been from when I walked out those doors of former employer on March 22nd.

  • Crossfit! WTF??  While I know I got there by the very grace of God, my Guides and the nudge of my pal AJ, I  somehow got there.  And I’m staying there.  I’ve written about how empowering it feels to do things with my body that I didn’t know I could do.  It’s impacted every area of my life, as far as I can tell. How cool is that?  Duty got me some kettlebells for my birthday and I am committed to using them.   If you had told me all this last year, I pretty much would have laughed in your face (but nicely, as is my wont).  And yet, here I am.
  •  Working as a solo-preneur – woot!  Happy beyond measure to do the work of my soul full-time but I’ll tell ya, it’s been a rocky road getting there.  Experiencing major success right off the bat ($6000 in two weeks) and then hard-core crashing and running into a closet over a remark someone made to me. (“Who are you to charge these fees??”) It took me the better part of the summer to find my way out of that closet and own “who I was” to charge what I do.  And now, working with a real biz coach who is really helping me step up my game and do things very differently.  It stirs up my fears and my worries but that’s a sign I’m way outta my comfort zone.  And that is where I must be if I’m going to do this work successfully in this world.
  • Life with a puppy is never dull.  Brogan has brought joy into our lives that we didn’t know we needed.  He’s gotten us up off the couch, out to the dog park where we have made some nice friends who are local.  He’s gotten me to take him for walks, helping me get even more into my body.  This is about as close a foray into child-care as we dare go and it’s quite enough, thankyouverymuch.  (Still think we would have been divorced if we had a child!)

I have a wonderful life for which I am so grateful.

I’m healthy, getting down into my body all the time (thanks to my Crossfit trainer!) and am perched on the edge of taking PI to new heights.

That’s pretty damn awesome.

Happy birthday to me, indeed.

Blah blah blah, General Blatherings, Happy Stuff

Rolling in the deep

April 17, 2011 Written by Lisa

Rolling in the Deep

Been listening to the Adele song of the same name because my sekrit BF did a cover of it recently and I was sadly ignorant of it. I’m so out of the loop when it comes to new music although I admit that I do know who Adele is and loved her song “Chasing Pavements”. This one rocks, though. She’s got a voice like no other. Love it. Thank goodness Mr. Cook is dragging my sad ass into the present (music-wise).

Cooklandia revisited!

Speaking of my beloved, I shall be seeing him in concert at the end of this month (woo hooo!) when he does a benefit a couple days before the Race for Hope. Still not dragging my ass for hope or anything else but am planning on attending the show. Cousin O’Love will be joining me and she’s always up for a fun time.

Failing up a mountain

I totally bolluxed myself up by aiming for $3000 this month, kids. That was a tad too far out of my vibration. I changed it to $2000 and am happy with that. I’m feeling like the end of August might be the appropriate time to make the switch (so sayeth my own personal astrologer and laugh if you want but she totally called Duty’s heart attack last year months before it happened.) I think I will go with that. It gives me some time and space to get my office set up and keep the flow moving with new classes and whatnot. Moving into a new venture with the energy of “I’ll show them not to get in my way” does not a peaceful transition make. Just sayin’.

Diversions

Who’s watching Idol? I am but only because sekrit BF is singing the “Get off the stage now” tune and will be performing on the show April 21st. Otherwise, I couldn’t care less. It makes for good snark, though, and a nice diversion from how things seem to be going to hell otherwise.

There’s no need for me to have an iPad but I’d love to be able to play my dorky games on a larger screen than my iPod. I have to put on those old lady glasses so I can see close up to play. I suck at Hearts, btw. There really is a strategy involved but I’ll be damned if I know it.

It didn’t take long for me to lose interest in my Kindle. I think I like old fashioned books. Plus, you can buy books for Kindle and read them on your PC so that works better for me. Am I a Luddite?

Work update

Sings out loud: “I’ve got the power” – because yes, yes I do. I can walk out tomorrow and be just fine. So I am doing what I can at work but am not killing myself over it. Other people in the office come and go at will and I have been bound by my dumb loyalty to the job. I say FEH to that! I actually took time for lunch and sat outside last week. It was nice. I’m going to make that a habit.

Also too: broker dude is behaving himself pretty well and there are a couple candidates coming in for interviews. Hope reigns supreme, yo! I will swim my way back to a peaceful day where I fax a bit, surf a lot and answer phone calls from Neanderthals. When the day comes that I no longer do that, you will find me dancing my ass out in the street. Really, if truth be told, no one should be paying me to answer phones. My tone seeps through no matter what. Someone called the other day and when I answered it they said this “(broker in our office) called me.” I replied “Okay.” Who calls a company and says that?? Is it possible to say “May I speak with Joe Smith? They just called me.” Fine. I’ll put you through. Learn some damn manners. Really. Or suffer the wrath of my piss-anty tone. (How many days until August 19th? Oh, I just checked: 124. Okay then.)

Takes deep breath and moves on.

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